Monday, October 10, 2011


I'm thinking of making my blog private.

Should I?

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

another chapter

I've graduated.

I'm officially a law graduate.

All those four years, filled with laughter, tears, stress, fights and quarrels, valuable experiences, endless non-stop learning process have finally paid off.

Now that I'm not a student anymore, I have to go through the working world, which of course will be harder than learning. (must be strong must be strong must be strong must be strong must be strong must be strong must be strong).

But that does not mean that I'm going to stop learning. It's one of the process and experience in life that I enjoyed, regardless of the stress and financial troubles. And I want to go as far as possible.

Masters in Law, I hope to see you soon! Insya Allah!

Wednesday, September 28, 2011


I lost the interest to read.

This is a bad sign

Saturday, July 2, 2011


currently hate my life

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

ish ish ish

Jumaat lepas, saya tersilap naik komuter.

Semalam, yakni hari Isnin, kunci mangga yang berat tu jatuh 'landing' sedappp je kat kaki aku.

Hari ni, tertinggal handphone kat rumah. Pergi balik kerja naik komuter (the right one this time, luckily), so kenalah guna telefon office and public phone. Nasib baik tau lagi pakai public phone...hahahaha!

Series of unfortunate events? not really. More like series of careless events.

Esok apa pulak? Pakai kasut lain-lain? =p

Saturday, June 11, 2011

the train back home.

Last Friday was a long day. And tiring as well.

At 6.00 p.m., I was feeling really happy. Finally, workdays are over and I was looking forward to the weekend. Normally, I go back home with my aunt. But since she was on leave at that time, I had to take the komuter train. Taking the komuter after office hour is not a nice, comfortable journey. I've taken the komuter many times and is familiar enough on which train to take to go to Kajang.

Unfortunately, that Friday, was not a normal journey. I think I was too excited to get back home that I didn't bother to check whether I hop on the right train. I got in safely, stood at the very end to avoid from falling and so that at least I can lean if not sitting. It was not until 3 stops that I realised that I was in the wrong train!! 3 stops!! sumpah blur giler!! The train was so packed like sardines, I was at the end, and I need to get out at the next stop. I started to think how am I going to get out? At that time I guess I have to be extra agressive. So, when the announcement said the train's stopping at Pantai Dalam station, I started walking towards the exit door, but it was so packed I was stuck halfway. T___T. Then when the door opened, dengan confidentnya, "TOLONG BAGI LALUAN SIKIT BOLEH? SAYA NAK KELUAR. TOLONG BAGI LALUAN. THANK YOU!"

Hahahahhaa....I can't believe I had to raise my voice in public so I can get out from there. I had to say that few times, because there were some passengers who refused to let us go out first. Talking about impatience. So, at Pantai Dalam, I had to wait for another komuter train to stop at KL Central, before I safely took the right train and reached Kajang. It was almost 9.00 p.m. and I was so exhausted. But at the same time, it was quite laughable. hahahaha! how could I be so careless?

Well, at least this is one of the many experience I will never forget. More to put inside my memory box! =D

Sunday, June 5, 2011

Monday Blues

Monday is here again.

Back to work again.

I am feeling so lazy, I feel like sleeping half the day and watch movie marathons. Harry Potter, Pirates of the Carribean, Star Wars, Indiana Jones, Lord of The Rings. Wouldn't that be awesome?

Okay, cut it out faridza. This is no longer student life or 'penganggur' life. Haha. You're working, you're becoming a member of working class Malaysian. Deal with it. And yes, no matter how much you want to be like Peter Pan, where you don't want to grow up, this is not Neverland.

Dear Spongebob, do you have any tips on how to get all psyched and excited to come to work? I find it hard to put a smile on my face and shout 'I'M READY!' before I going off to work.

Sabar farid. Think about the money. The moolah. And how many BOOKS and CLOTHES you can buy. haha. (secretly, more excited about the books than the clothes..=p)

Saturday, June 4, 2011

Book Reading

I was on the way going back home in Ipoh when I received a text message from a friend of mine. She invited me to a Book Reading session tomorrow at Garden Villa. I was so excited because I hardly have the chance to attend a Book Reading and of course I RSVP 'yes' to her invitation!

Going back home...the journey was not fun. The bus was delayed for an hour and a half, and by the time I reached home it was already 1 a.m.! Didn't really get a good night sleep. Well, nevermind, seeing my parents and my brother is one great feeling. My brother just had his 'bersunat' or circumcision, and he can't really move around. haha! poor boy.

So at 11 a.m. I was on the way there. Here's the poster of the event
Was feeling excited!! and the place is really beautiful. Garden Villa 5, it has a nostalgic feel of it.

the info of it can be found here

It started quite late, but I enjoyed every moment of it. I even bought two novels; Teohlogy by the very own Patrick Teoh and Mea Culpa by Amirul Fakir, a collection of his essays. I love reading malay literature novels, rather than their normal love novels. No offence to the novel lovers. 

Poet laureate Haji Muhammad Salleh started first, reading his poems. For those who still remember the selected poems and short stories back in school; Si Tanggang's Homecoming, he's the writer. My favourite poem would be Surat Kepada Raja Siam tentang Durian. It was funny, classic and original. He read his poems both in Malay and English. Next, Patrick Teoh, reading his articles from his Teohlogy book. I think his session is the funniest, most lively and where I laughed the most. His articles are mostly true, mostly on what's happening in the country right now. He even wore  a T-shirt with the word 'I Love My Country but I Fear The Government'. I want that T-shirt!!! =D. After 10 minutes of refreshment break, we listened to Graham McEune, who lived in Ipoh before but currently residing in Singapore. He read some of his short stories compilation. It was wonderful to hear him read, especially with that pure British accent! He read 3 short stories, and my favourite would be the story where he went to the doctor because was worried of the smell of his urine was different and unusual. It turned out that it was due to the Petai that he ate when he was in Cameron Highland!!! lol! The final reader was Bernice Chauly, and she too read three of her short stories. 

It was fun to see how culture and everyday life can give a person inspirations and change their perspective in certain issues. I enjoyed every minute of it, every word, every gesture of the reader. We even took pictures with the reader and I had Patrick Teoh's autograph!!! Looking forward for any future book reading! but now  I'm looking and waiting for some book promotions! there are some novels that I want!! =D

p/s: there are some other pictures too! but will upload it later. Camera has no battery! >.<

Happy Birthday

To my dearest Daddy!!! =D

Happy Birthday to you! I love you to bits! And I thank you so much for all the teachings, love, patience, perseverance and care that you gave me and my siblings. You're the best in the world!! And I apologise for being a pain in the ass and for causing troubles and burden to you. Trust me, I will pay all that sacrifice you've done, and I pray that it will be real soon.

Love you so much dearest father.

Wednesday, June 1, 2011

How I Survived the First Day

Tajuk sangat over. Macam tajuk survivor tsunami or gempa bumi. Padahal nak tulis pasal entry first day kerja. Ceh! Tak apa la, sekali sekala nak jugak pakai hiperbola, dah lama tak pakai term sastera ni. hehe

Anyways, today was the first day of attachment. I prefer the term 'chambering' to 'attachment' but since my exam results are not out yet, like it or not, it's an attachment. T____T. Working hours from 8.45 to 6.00 p.m, and of course being a newbie, I reached there early. Then I was taken into the office where I was inroduced to the staffs there. I seriously didn't expect that there will be so many staffs, and I'm certain that I won't be able to remember all their names on the same day. I'm assigned to the litigation section, and is given my own cubicle! haha! Then came the awkward moment. I was surrounded by people working and typing and photocopying, and I sat there doing nothing. I asked the girl next to me if I can help her in anything, but they didn't have anything to give me and they didn't dare to give me because they didn't receive any instruction from the lawyer. So, I sat there, surfing the net, chat a bit with the girl next to me and another chambering student. At that time, I started to feel that it was not a good first day.

It wasn't until after lunch that I received some tasks. I was relieved, and nervous at the same time. Afraid that I might mess up and get scolded or shouted at, which is definitely not something that I want on my first day. Fortunately, the staff are willing to teach and it wasn't so complicated. Of course la bagi yang senang dulu kan..dah nama pun budak baru. hehe

All in all, the first day ended well. I still feel awkward, and I still have not made that many friends and acquaintances, but at least I managed to make myself comfortable enough not to hate the place. I just hope that throughout the whole 9 months pupillage period, I make a good performance and do more right things than the wrong.

Wish me luck!!

Tuesday, May 31, 2011

more than just butterflies in my stomach

will start work tomorrow.

can't stop thinking about it, I even dreamt about it. And the dream wasn't a nice one.

not prepared mentally and emotionally. I find it too fast to start. Didn't even stayed a week at home. Plans to make cookies and cupcakes with my brother...gone!

a reunion coming! hope I am able to attend it.

Don't know what to do now. Don't know what to prepare. I just hope that tomorrow will not end up to be my worst day ever.

Thursday, May 26, 2011

should I?

Supposedly, there were four interviews to attend. I've packed my bags with all the formal clothes, tried to remember some basics on contract law, islamic banking, admiralty law as much as possible and wish that I can remember during the interview. I planned if possible, I'd like to do my chambering in a firm which has anything to do with shipping law or international trade, because that's what I planned to further my studies into.

Alas! I only went to the first interview and missed the rest. I am not sure whether I should call it a good interview or otherwise. I reached there early, waited in the lobby for about 10 minutes. Got called and was asked to fill in the application form, which I did it in a few minutes. Then came the boring part; waiting. Yeah, they made me wait for 30 minutes. And the staffs can see what I was doing (practically nothing!) as they pass by. Then the partner came, asked me a few questions like which do you prefer; conveyancing or litigation, and when can you start, and what if there were other firms that offered you a position, in which I asked those question honestly. I think. Haha.

The firm is different than what I want. They only do banking. 95% banking. At first, I thought maybe this is not the suitable firm for me, because I'm not interested in banking in the first place. So, I thought why get involved in something that you don't like? And they want me to start on 1st June! I was thinking of starting later. I need a break, plus, there's a reunion coming!! I don't want to miss it!! >.< Their pay is good though, in line with the lifestyle in KL. And the place is strategic, in the heart of KL, near to my aunt's workplace, so there's no need for me to bring my car, yet.

Then after the interview, I went to Sogo, while waiting for my aunt to finish her work. It ended at 3.30, so I have to wait like an hour and a half. And imagine wearing heels, carrying your file and coat, it was kind of exhausting. I've circled the place two or three times, before I went out to go to Mukmin bookstore, bought two novels and two magazines, went to Secret Recipe for some refreshments, before walking back to BNM.

Oh, I forgot to tell you. They called back. And I got the position. Which brings me to this dilemma of whether I should accept it or not? Parents gave the expected answer; take it. Some friends also suggested the same. I'm still uncertain. Should I? Because I'm not sure if this can take me to where I want to go. All this while people say to get the job you love. Now that it's the opposite, I'm not sure whether I can love the job that I get.

Sunday, May 22, 2011


 And this journey that we're on,
how far we've come, and I celebrate every moment.

Yes. Every journey will finally come to an end. As for me, it will be the four years journey as a law student in a university located far up north of the country. Every journey has its story and tales. Mine is probably not the most exciting one, but I've learnt many things. Experiences taught me how to act wiser and smarter, how to cope with problems no matter how minimal it is, and how to survive when I feel that everyone else is going against me. I come to realise that not everyone is who they really said they are. People wear masks, and some of them wore theirs perfectly that you are unable to see the real person until they reveal themselves. I deal matters involving people; friendship especially, more than I deal with matters involving my studies, which is supposed to be my priority. I guess He wants me to deal with both. I had this thought that people will be kind to you if you're being likewise to them. Well, some of them don't and I had to learn it the hard way. First hand experience. And it was a good thing. Experience is really the best teacher, managed to wake me up and realize about the ugly truth before it's too late.    

But not all are pebbles in the shoe. Of course, there are also wonderful, lovely people I met that taught me that it is alright to go against the crowd. Just be true to yourself, and you'll do fine anyways. Different people have their path differently made. There was a time where I prefer to be in a comfort zone, but now I think, being too comfortable doesn't really take you anywhere. Still trying to cope with this, I just hope I have enough determination and strength. These friends, these darlings cheers my gray and lonely days, helped me in times of need, and lend their ears when I need someone to talk to. And together we create our own circle and memories.  

This journey will end in a few days. On the last day, tears will fall, there'll be endless hugs and kisses and taking pictures to capture and preserve the moment. Of course, it will be a sad day. But that is life. Life gives you precious memorable times you wish will never end, but only give you shorter moments for you to say goodbye. Or maybe it's just in my own experience. Sure, you will miss the times and how you wish you'd appreciate those moments more, but that feeling too, will come to an end. Because another journey awaits, and you cannot greet it unless you are ready to let go. Let go of the emotion of wanting to go back to the past. Take back the heart and emotion to the present day, and keep those cherished memories safely in a box, and store it in your memory and at the bottom of your heart. But don't lose it, because it will come in handy in times of need.  

Friday, May 20, 2011

Today in History

SINTOK- This just in. Apparently, a class of final year student who were taking their criminal procedure exam today had their exam to be 'postponed' for a few hours. This is due to the fact that the staff and the lecturer failed to provide them with Criminal Procedure Code (CPC), an essential reference for their exam. It was reported before that the lecturer, who do not wished to have his name published, have agreed and told his beloved final year students that they will be provided with Criminal Procedure Code for their exams. The Code will be provided by the faculty.

Nevertheless, the students were shocked when they found out that there was no CPC provided. Despite attempts made by several students to request to the staffs for the CPC to be photocopied as soon as possible, their request were not well entertained as the staff said they need to get permission by the lecturer himself. The lecturer was in Penang, activity unknown, perhaps handling a case or in his office or having a rest at home.

Due to the miscommunication between both the lecturer and the staff, students were made to wait without any definite answer of when the exam will actually starts. The paper that should have started as early as 9.00 a.m. was delayed for 3 hours, causing not only dissatisfaction, but also anger and tired of waiting.

This is perhaps one of the rarest occasion to occur in this place who take pride on having somewhat a good and efficient management skills. So far, there are no other places reported to this reporter about a delayed exam for 3 hours. Well, I guess this really is a one of a kind uni.

p/s: sila baca cara orang baca berita TV3 or BBC. lol!

Wednesday, May 18, 2011


dear God, ,make me a bird, so I can fly far, far, far away from here.

what I'm feeling right now. That sentence pretty much explains it.

Sunday, May 15, 2011

what do you think?

I found this in makan-dalam.blogspot. What do you guys think? How far is this true?

time machine

Boy, time sure does fly fast! I just got back and is still having the post picnic mood, when I realized there's only 5 days left for the remaining 2 papers! so now you're panicking?

Procrastinator. A big one.

Saturday, May 14, 2011

roadtrip + picnic

Able to sigh for least for this one week. Last Wednesday was the second paper, Jurisprudence 2. And while I really like learning about Jurisprudence; honestly, I just like reading and knowing about different philosophies and how these jurists think about changing the society and the law and how much they defend their theory and critic others. Nerd much? Maybe. Haha! Unfortunately, I kinda botched the paper. Failed to remember that well what those jurists said and argued. Furthermore, I was feeling sleepy due to lack of sleep and had infections at my right eye (it turned red and itchy), VERY disturbing!! Frustrated. I knew I could do better, because it's one of my favourite subject! damn!

Too late to mend things now. What's done is done. So, after the exam, we have 10 days gap before the remaining 2 papers; criminal procedure and evidence. And as usual, I'm not the type of person who go preparing notes straight away. Normally I'll be doing it 4 or 5 days before the exams. Ha! And you wondered why I couldn't answer properly...faridz, faridz....haih....

Anyways, my friends and I decided to release the tension and treat ourselves to enjoy the end of a stressful week. So on Friday, we packed our bags and drove to Sg.Sedim!!!! Yay!!! a perfect getaway! the place is just beautiful!(it's so pretty I'm gonna die!! XD) I love being surrounded by nature, and this place is a must go! It's quiet, the air is fresh, greenery everywhere, and the waterfall is just awesome!! love the cool clear water!! At first I didn't plan to join my friends for a dip, because my monthly friend came at the wrong time! >.< Nevertheless, the water is just soooooooo tempting, I decided to jump into the water anyway! Hahaha! we had an amazing time, splashing at each other and floating in the water. The current is really strong, and unless you really know how to swim, it's best to be cautious. We brought along food, and we had a small picnic. Not the yummiest food we've ever prepared, but what the hell, eh? we had a really good time and it is definitely one memorable time! I really love the time, being around friends and nature, all the stress, and the tension...gone.

Here are some pictures I took from facebook. Didn't manage to upload those from my camera. =p

Friday, May 6, 2011

and so it starts. A beginning to an end

I am going to sit for my final exam in two days...well, a day, considering that it has past midnight.

this also marks the final exam finals that I am going to take.

Sedih pulak. I bet after this I will miss the environment of studying late at night with your friends, collecting notes and got them checked just in case you missed one that is important, the exam hall that is super sejuk nak mampus that you're going to freeze if you forgot to bring a sweater (happened to me twice, and I almost thought I was actually gonna freeze! terketar-ketar satu badan!), and don't forget those midnight snacks, it seemed that studying just made you hungrier than the usual. I'm sure gonna miss the reaction before and after exam. Before exam they will all be reciting and memorising, muka ketat je semua. Nak cakap pun taknak sebab takut hilang apa yang dibaca. After the exam, everyone seemed to have this relieved expression, but when you asked how was it, the normal reply would be like 'abis la aku weh, sem depan kena repeat/repair paper!', 'teruk giler weh, aku tak ingat apa yang aku baca!', 'tak cukup masa nak tulis weh. tangan aku dah beku dah', 'ntah la, tak tau la amende yang aku tulis,'...and a variety more. Hardly I received replies like 'ok la, tapi tak tau la betul ke tak,' or 'takde la susah sangat. Alhamdulillah aku ingat apa yang aku baca'. Afraid of being labelled overconfidence? Perhaps. I for one think it shows a positive attitude and confidence. kalau betul rasa macam tu tak salah kalau jawab macam tu. haha.

Student's life. I'm definitely going to miss you. Especially the free time I have, which I'm sure will not have much of them after this. Teringat pulak apa yang aku, dila, fenny and atiah cakap time lunch tadi: 'nanti benda yang kita ada sekarang akan jadi benda yang kita takde dan sesuatu yang kita nak, and benda yang kita nak tapi takde sekarang akan jadi benda yang kita sentiasa ada'. Faham tak? haha...simply put, bagi contoh duit and masa. Sekarang kita selalu pikir pasal tak cukup duit nak beli itu ini tapi ada banyak masa sampai tak tahu nak buat apa. Tapi lepas ni, kita dah boleh dapat and buat duit sendiri tapi kita akan selalu nak balik masa yang dulu kita ada'

Yup, that is life right. It's like taking turns. Sama la macam bila kita nak hujan, hari pulak panas terik. Tapi bila hari panas terik, teringin pulak nak hujan datang. It's better to accept what's coming and try not to whine and complain to much. There's always a silver lining. (note to self too. jangan banyak complain! hee)

-nanti la cakap pasal benda lain. Need the perfect mood.- ;)

Wednesday, May 4, 2011


Just a bit more.

You can definitely do this. Sure, it's difficult, much difficult than before and from what you expected, but remember the finishing result will be satisfying. Fight that negative, passive energy that is swirling and surrounding you now and welcome the positive and active. Force is necessary at this time. Must force yourself. Must do it to the very best as you can. Everyone else is going through the same thing too, and yes, perhaps what they're having is easier but take this as an advantage. At least you know what your limitations and your weaknesses.There's always chances to improve, the only difference is either you choose to take the chance or not.

Come on. Just this one. Consider this as trial and preparation for a heavier burden and a bigger responsibility to come.

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

sigh sigh sigh.....more sighs

Ever had a lecture that started from 10 a.m. to 10 p.m? with only one break given? No? good, don't. never. ever. ask for that. Yes? that surely you'll know how it felt.

The silver lining of this is at least we've completed one assignment. The big one. I said it's a big one because I find that until and unless this big assignment is not finished, I can't proceed to the other assignments, all due before the final exam, which starts on the 8th May, which, as you are all very much aware of, will be next week. As I'm writing this, I have 4 days before the exam, 3 assignments yet to be completed, haven't started a thing yet for the finals (yeah, I even forgot to print the exam slip!), and...well....more sighs and more stress.

Well, at least the so called mock trial went out well. I managed to convince the judge to grant bail to my pregnant accused. Poor lady, a mistress, and pregnant with a baby in a breach situation. Pitiful, eh? hahaha...glad that I didn't stammer much too. To the rest of the group members, kudos to all of you! A job well done. Praise ourselves for being able to survive till the very last moment. (dah group last, sah-sah lah kena stay sampai abis kan? hahaha).

Another news came today. I've decided to erase the doubt and clarify the status once and for all. Better to know and be disappointed now than being kept wondering and having false hope right? So yeah, as predicted, it wasn't a good one. Frustrated? Disappointed? Hell yeah! I feel sorry for my parents, especially my father for all the troubles I've caused. Honestly speaking, the frustration and disappointment is mostly for letting down and disappointing him. I thought I can repay back by telling him a good news once in a while, unfortunately, I don't have any.

Think positive. That's what many said to me. Yeah, that's perhaps the only way to move on. And what is sadder, is I have to force myself to find at least one thing positive about it.

Friday, April 29, 2011

Agent Smith wannabe

while others wish they have powers like those in Heroes (flying, reading minds, healing powers, freeze the time and all), I on the other hand wish I have the ability to multiply myself like Agent Smith from The Matrix, or at least have multiple hands.

I'm having tons of assignments need to be completed within this week, and I find that it would be more advantageous to be able to multiply myself instead of asking for the day to be more than 24 hours. Serves me right for procrastinating? This time, I don't think I'm to blame completely, because we received the assignments late too. Hahaha...blame it on the alcohol lecturer! ( tak baik. Tak berkat!)

Mock trial for criminal procedure, jurisprudence, professional practice (housing loan and establishing legal firm), civil procedure (4 take home test and group assignment). Adding it is the final exam is next week. First paper is on the 8th; civil procedure. Hope we are able to know the topics coming out for finals as soon as possible.

Working cap on! lol!

Thursday, April 28, 2011



Still waiting.

And waiting...

waiting again...

they said don't be demotivated.

they told me not to give up.

well, I am tired of waiting.

I already feel demotivated.

And I'm very near to giving up hope. One step more.

Friday, April 22, 2011

so that's that

I am writing this from my mom's laptop.

As mentioned before, I received an offer to attend an interview to some firms. So, I went back on Wednesday, after the Jurisprudence test, and went to KL that very evening with my father. There were three interviews that I was supposed to attend. The first was at Mont Kiara, the second at Megan Avenue and the third is at Jalan Sultan Ismail. Nevertheless, due to unforeseen conditions and after much consideration, I've decided to let go of the third one, which was scheduled on Friday. Will talk more about it later.

So, we stayed a night at a hotel. I brought along my Civil Procedure book. Yessss, for my friends who read this, ye, dengan bangganya aku memberitahu aku bawak sekali buku Janab yang besar, tebal gedabak tu. Kononnya nak baca, kot-kot la diorg tanya aku pasal civil. Mampus aku nak menjawab. Haha.

The first interview was at Mont Kiara, at 10 a.m, and we were there an hour early. Semangat!! Padahal dalam hati tersangat nervous asyik rasa macam nak terkentut je. Hehe. The interview was really short, about 10-15 minutes only. Perhaps it was not the partner who interviewed me. And honestly I was dumbfounded when they said they pay RM700 for chambering students. I might be wrong, but RM700 won't make the cut, especially if you're going to rent a house throughout the whole 9 months, plus with fuel money, maintenance and other necessary things, it's going to be difficult living with just RM70o (hari-hari makan maggi and nasi campur kicap/telur je la gamaknya...hahaha)

The second interview was at Megan Avenue, at 3 p.m. And we got lost while searching for the office. Bukan sesat cari jalan ye, sesat cari office. Hahaha! Well, considering that I've never been there before, it was quite acceptable that we couldn't find our way, plus it is a really big building! This firm is bigger than the first one. And there were another 3 students who came for interview. (one of them is Cik Fenny! hahaha!). The interview went quite well, I think. This one was really challenging. They asked me many questions that I really have to think quick and carefully to give them the answer. But that's not the challenging part. The challenging part was that even after you answer, they would twist and turn my answer and asked another question from that. Psycological much? Indeed it is!!! It was funny that I didn't find it stressful, rather kind of enjoyed it. It was like a discussion and giving opinions rather that they questioned and I answered. This interview took like 45 minutes! didn't expect it would be that long. Poor Fenny! She had to leave for another interview at 5.30 p.m. But, lucky for her, she's already been accepted to the first firm she went to! Yay!! Good for you girl! They must've liked you very much! =D

So now, I'm still 'unemployed' by any firms. Heh. Not that worried though. I have tried my best, so it's up to them to consider if I'm suitable for their firm. Plus, I'm still going to send applications around, hopefully I'll find a place sooner or later.

Ok lah, that's all I wanna write about so far. Lots more in my mind, but I'll tell later. Toodles!

Saturday, April 16, 2011

shush! In the name of Peace.


I like this one quote by Madame Giry, a character in the Phantom of The Opera. When she tried to warn Joseph Buquet to be careful of what he said about the Phantom, she said, or sing, in this situation 'Those who speak of what they know find too late that prudent silence is wise'.

Yeah, I agree with that. Prudent silence is wise. If you can't say anything smart from your mouth, might as well keep quiet, zip your mouth tight. Don't say a word.
Normally this principle is best applied in a situation where you're in a bad mood, or in an argument or in a stressful situation and you feel like punching everyone's faces. Of course, when you're angry all the negative elements will be surrounding you like bees surrounding honey. You start to find the faults in everyone; one is being so nosy, one is being an irritating chatterbox, one is being annoying, all those things will suddenly appear out of nowhere.

For some, they find it better to express the feelings out. In most cases I see, they'll be expressing them out in an angry attitude, shouting, and blaming others, or in some situation, being cynical or sarcastic, or throwing tantrums, like throwing things, and kicking the furniture, anything that can make them release all that angry emotion that's in them. Now, I'm just saying this in my own perspective. I don't really like such approach. From what I've seen, hardly anything good comes from it. It usually ends up with the other person getting hurt or offended, and it just makes matters worse. Sure, it makes you feel good, but it leads to another issue, which if left untreated, will be long or never ending. Like a saying 'nothing can ever be solved if you fight fire with fire'. True enough. A quarrel or an argument will only satisfy one person; the person who wins the argument. And the other one will be left hurt, and when there's hurt in a person's heart, it's not easy to heal. Even if it's healed, it leaves a scar. Or for some people, they don't forget. (your truly?)

So I find it easier to learn to try and coax the heart first. Say to yourself 'you're angry, you're mad, try not to say anything silly in this sort of emotion. cool down first,'. because I find that all the words I said out when I'm angry or in a bad mood are the words that I really regret saying them out loud. It's an awful feeling. Try to distract the feeling by doing something else. Go out for a walk, put on your headphones and turn on the music to its maximum volume, or sleep. My teacher chose ironing clothes when she's in a bad mood or feeling stressful. And when someone tried to strike a conversation with you, even if you're not in the mood to talk, don't snap at them. Take a deep breath, teach your heart to be patient, control the anger, the voice volume, the tone, and try to reply them as cool and as kindly as possible. People know when a person's in a bad mood, it's like a heavy, cumulonimbus cloud is right above your head. You'll have this gloomy, 'constipated' look, like you're thinking about something too hard. They wouldn't want to bother a bad mood person unless they have something important or necessary to say.

Don't think about how good it feels to win an argument. I know it feels really good, especially when you proved someone wrong, at that time that was like the best feeling ever! yeah, of course it is, for the moment! Then what? Nothing! Life goes on normally, the next day you'll be talking or laughing with the same person you argued with. No point, well, except to make things clear, but for that, you don't need to have an argument, slow talk is enough. In some situation, it is best to be the one backing out. Mengalahlah kalau dalam bahasa kebangsaan Malaysia. Sure, it makes you feel like you lost, or makes you look like you're the one at fault. But think like this, 'somebody has to grow up, and end this ridiculous issue. Obviously it wasn't that person, so why not you? It won't harm you. Later on, you'll find yourself to be more capable in handling your patience and your heart.

But if you still can't get it out from your chest.....scream!! take a pillow and screammmm as loud and as long as you want to. Or find a place where nobody's around and let your heart out!

And if that still doesn't work, there's Facebook! write a status. Or blogger, write a post, or Tumblr, reblog pictures describing your mood and emotion.
There's always a better way!

p/s: so, if ever anyone see me quiet and distant after reading this, you know what it means. ;)

Monday, April 11, 2011

thoughts from a bored mind

My cravings for durians is still not fully satisfied., albeit the fact that I've had 3 sessions of 'durian eating' with my friends here. Maybe I should buy one or two of the fruit and eat it all on my own. Lol!

Watched the Big Bang Theory yesterday. Can't stop laughing. Simply amusing. And genius! Lol! (the 'amy and sheldon had sexual intercourse' gossip is one awesome gossip! hahahaha.

Received another offer. But then comes the same problem; time. Should I do it after my Jurisprudence test or after the final exams? Mom preferred the latter, which is opposite of this 'you snooze you lose' principle I have. =[

Eat a lot these few days. Yesterday bought murtabak, nasi tomato, karipap and popiahs and I managed to finish them all! O__o!

Have piles of assignments waiting to be completed. Had my Professional Practice half done, and my Evidence, also halfway done, have not started doing Jurisprudence yet (please don't get the difficult topic), no news on Civil Procedure and Criminal Procedure.

Farewell party in a couple of weeks. Haven't bought any presents yet. Must be universal. Hmm...can I just get one and insert  a note 'if you're a guy and you received this, I'm sorry, I just picked what I thought was nice' together with it? Not good in choosing the best present.Am excited to vote for the classmate for the awards though. Heh. Wondered if I have any chances of winning??? -_-''

A month more and I'll be leaving this university. Leaving the college, my extra spacious room that brings jealousy to some of my friends, the lectures, the lecturers, the peaceful, green environment, the monkeys, the cats, and most of all my friends. Sad. SAd. SAD! SAD!! SAD!!!  okay okay...control...breath in...breath out...

well...I think that's all about it. Got nothing else to write about.

Ok, till we meet again. Nak tengok movie. (takde kerja)

Saturday, April 9, 2011

my precious second home

Suddenly I miss my Alma Mater.
Was looking through the pictures with my highschool friends, and I realised it has been 6 years since I left Convent. I'm a product of Convent school and I'm proud of being one. It was there where I learn how to be courteous; we greeted every teacher we bumped into, 'P's and Q's is like a routine word used everyday, I learn how to pronounce a word correctly, where I made good relationships with the teachers and the school staff (the assistant librarian especially, Mrs.Ooi...I miss u!) and most of all, where I made friends that add colours to my life.

I remembered how nerdy I was back then. School librarian, teacher's daughter (yup, my mum's the teacher there, and she taught my class BM!) my friends are all from that school, and other girls from other school. Hardly know any boys, or even talk to one. Haha...a completely different person from what I am today. A big surprise! lol!

 Here's the badge. Originally, there was a cross sign, but it was replaced by the star. Then, there was a bible, but was then replace by a book.

And here's the picture of my beloved school, past and present:

 Honestly, I love it more when it was painted blue...looked more nostalgic...maybe it's just me (I'm a sucker for ancient and old gothic architecture). And I have few places that has become my favourite place to 'lepak' with my friends.

-The Library.
I'm a of course that's my place. And what other place is better for those who love being surrounded by books than the library? Had fun being a librarian...wrapped books, shelving, updating the DDCS (dewey decimal classification system), and got hooked on books, and often got away from paying the 'denda' whenever the borrowing date expired. heh heh... I love this library not only we can meet and gather together, but also there are lots of classical books, books you can never find it anywhere today. All the hardcover, yellow page books, with silverfish spotted in between the pages,...I miss that moment. >.<

-The Chapel.
This is another favourite place of mine. I love staying and hanging out in the chapel. For one thing, it's cooling, because of the'll never feel stuffy or hot when you're in the chapel. And since that's where we often practice our choir and that's where the music class is, it gives more reason to be there. Sometimes I played the piano, or tried playing the Gamelan and Caklempong, and banging on the drums, and tried my hands playing the guitar, or sometimes I just like to sit there enjoying it's pretty structure while waiting for my mom. Our choir sounds lovelier and we became more excited in trying to win the competition. =D

 -The Volleyball court.
or the place where we have our assembly, or where the 7th Coy Rangers practiced their march everyday, or the place where we sat and talked early in the morning, waiting for the bell to ring, or the place where we sat and hang out during recess...frankly it's a multi-purpose court. LOL! That was where we sat together talking about some interesting things happened during last night's tuition, or talking about the same tv programme we watched last night, or talking about what we heard on Hitz.Fm this morning on the way to school, or when it was football season, the team we supported; those Beckham lovers, Thierry Henry fans, Zinedine Zidane supporters, all gather together talking about which footballer is the best. Then came the assembly, where we sang a patriotic song, and listening to the announcements and some good or bad news. Sometimes we have to listen to our PK HEM lecturing us about our attitudes, and announcing the cleanest class and dirtiest class; who later had to go for Litter Duty. At that time, I was thinking what's the point in doing all this? But now, as I remembered, those were precious moments that I dearly miss.

Well, there are other things that I'd like to share about SMC, but I think it will only bore the readers. purpose of writing this. It just makes me happy to remember and share about the precious times I had with my friends in SM Convent.

Friday, April 8, 2011

all hail the King!

Last two days we had the opportunity to spend time with the King! (kau ada?)
Ala, tak payah la nak kecoh-kecoh, jumpa King je pun. Bukan benda besar. Takat nak jumpa king of fruits, ko cari je la kat mana-mana tempat. Confirm jumpa, sekarang tengah musim, kalau tak dapat tu, it's either kau pemalas gila nak pergi mencari or kau memang hilang deria penglihatan. 

So yeah, last two nights, we had this small party celebrating the arrival of this magnificent fruit king! King Durian, duh! 
Dah lama sebenarnya kepingin makan durian, cuma tak berkesempatan. Plus, kalau ada pun, dulu jual mahal, now that the price is slightly lower and reasonable, apa lagi? Borong la sebanyak mana kau mampu. Haha!
And what made things more exciting was that dearest dad is willing to sponsor! Bank in duit suruh aku sponsor belanja kawan-kawan makan durian! Haha! Sapa yang taknak? Aku pun dengan seronok dan berbesar hatinya mengajak kawan-kawan semua pergi menjelajah pekan cari buah durian. Ingatkan nak makan kat tmpat tu terus, tiba-tiba pulak hujannnnn.....jadi semua pakat longgok simpan dalam car boot, makan lepas kelas malam. At 11 p.m. to be exact.

Bila habis kelas, bukak pintu kereta semerbak keluar bau durian, menimbulkan persoalan dalam kepala classmate yang lain, sapa yang simpan durian tak ajak makan skali? hehe. Sorry, I beli tak cukup untuk satu kelas. Nanti la you all pergi beli, murah je. heh. Poyo. 

So lepas tu, bergegas balik, get ready air mineral, berkumpul di badminton court, dan bermulalah the first supper kitorang! First supper makan durian! haha! Memang nikmat, buah pulak semua elok, takde pun yang berulat bagai. Pergh, memang tak puas. The next day, pergi beli lagi 5 biji, kali ni cik Dila pulak yang sponsor. Thanks ye cik Dila..hehe!

Cakap je tak best. Here are a few pictures I snapped during sesi santapan kami. =D

love every moments, every laughter, every smiles we had together! Gonna miss them terribly when it ends! (teary eyes) >.<

Thursday, April 7, 2011

bad or good habit?

I have this one habit. I'm not sure whether it is a good one or a bad one. For those who was once hit my this habit of mine, perhaps they will think that it is a bad one. But everything has two sides of the story. Some people didn't mind, in fact they thanked me for it.

What habit? well, I tend to correct people's grammar. Yes. Doesn't that sound annoying? You'd think; 'who are you to tell me about grammar? You don't even speak English at home!' or 'kau siapa nak betul-betulkan grammar aku? macam la kau tu betul sangat English.' Ouch! Yes, I know, I am completely aware that my English is not the very best one. It's not my mother tongue, and yes, I too, still do grammatical errors. But there's one thing. I am aware of the mistake, and I improved. Improve in a way that in other future conversations, I remind myself of the right way of saying, whether I have to use has or have, is or was, I keep that in mind. I train my brain to construct the word before I say it out. And I'm keen in looking for new vocabs. I read the dictionary sometimes. Yes, the dictionary! And when I watch a movie, I don't just watch, I listened to them. How they pronounce the word, whether they use the right grammar in addressing a certain plot or scene. And trust me, not all movie used right grammar all the way throughout the movie. I managed to spot a few mistakes. And I'm proud for being able to detect it, because I know I'm improving. No longer have to rely on subtitles. And it just adds more interest in learning new languages.

 see what happens when you use the wrong grammar???

That is  my intention. To help a person improve. Also because it doesn't sound right to the ear when you pronounce wrongly, but that's besides the point. I know, I'm not a master in grammar, but at least I can help with the knowledge that I have, even if it is just the slightest error of using 'is' and 'was'. Sharing knowledge is encouraged, even if it is only at a small portion. It's better than being a selfish know-it-all. Mostly, people misunderstood. They think I'm bragging. A sad reality. I know, you will feel embarrassed. I felt the same way too when my friend did it to me. Better to get embarrassed now in front of your friends. But that embarrassment is just for a second. The mistake though, you'll remember for a long time, and you'll be aware not to repeat the same mistake in future.

I think if such authority exists, I don't know how many 'saman' tickets I'm gonna get! lol!

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Show Me Your Bff Contest.

Hello there!!

Current location: Library. My college had no electricity so I decided to hang out here for a while. Sambil-sambil tu wanna try my luck in joining a contest. This would be my second attempt entering a contest, after one organized by blog Denaihati.

Anyways, this contest needs you to post a picture of you and your friends and say a few words about them/her/him. So here's the picture!
Tada!!! yes, I look tired in that picture. T____T
So, here's a few words about me and my lovely friends.

Dear Nurulbadiah Lai,
What can I say about friendship? For one thing it is based on trust, sincerity and memories! I chose this picture not because my other friends are not wonderful, but because these lovelies have been my friends for the longest time! Since high school! And everytime we meet, there's always excitement and stories to tell and shared! =D
Ok, let me introduce you to them. I refer to the biggest picture. From left, the one with glasses and long hair, that's Amy Ho! We have our own nickname! It all began with Cats and The Phantom of The Opera and the next thing you know, I find myself spending time laughing and talking non-stop about musicals with her! She's really a cheerful, bubbly and neat person! sekarang dah kerja dah pun. Lucky you now that you have your own money! >.<. Next to her, is Michelle Chew! Yes, as you can see her smile is what makes people love her! And her laugh! I swear you'll laugh along! And yes, her love for books! She's a sweet girl, what more can I say?? We hardly see each other as she is now studying far far away. The one next to her is Sarah Shireen! I've known her since primary school! And we share many things in common! She's an interesting and fun person to talk and to hang out with. It's a pity that she was misunderstood by some, because she's one of the most honest and sincere person I know! Once you get to know her, she is such a dear! (if you're reading this Sarah, I really mean what I said). I guess it's true; Tak kenal maka tak cinta. Now she's in Russia, doing medicine, a future doctor!!! And I'm sure you'll be a good surgeon! =D Lastly, next to me, is Pui Yee!! She's studying in USM, and if there's anything about downloading and internet stuff, she's the one you can rely on! Good with gadgets and technology! Cheerful and bubbly just like Amy! (they both look like sisters! lol!) We gatecrashed her house to make a surprise birthday party once, it was a success!! And she's responsible with my current obsession with Darren Criss! LOL!

We all have some things in common. Books, musicals, glee, darren criss, nice soothing songs, oldies songs, yum cha sessions. We hardly meet. We are separated miles away. But we still keep in touch and find ourselves still getting excited whenever one of us posted a Darren Criss video or a Musical show in facebook. (like that show in Istana Budaya. Amy Ho, I'm so jealous! >.<) And whenever we meet, it's like we have the place all for our own. Even if the meeting is just for an hour or so, we filled it with laughter and chatter, and sharing the latest news and gossip. Like there is no worries in the world. We made effort in making those small, random short meeting memorable. And it worked, because I really miss them. I miss seeing them and talking to them. I miss being all crazy with them. I miss that moment where we rekindled back our highschool memories; our classes, our teachers that we like and dislikes, our school trip, and the awkward moment we involuntarily made that made us all laughed. Those were precious moments. 
Kawan tak semestinya mesti ada bersama setiap masa. A friend is a best friend when you know they will always be there for you, even if we are separated miles away, when you can still smile excitedly whenever you see them coming, when you still have so many things to tell even when you hardly see each other, and when you still miss them so much and wanting to see them again. Everyday, if possible.

Contest ni is from the lovely sis Nurulbadiah Lai. Show me your BFF Contest. =)

Check out her contest entry here!!

Saya tag:

Monday, April 4, 2011



Got a reply from one of the firms, saying that I can come for an interview.

Don't want to get too excited yet. Waiting for the rest of the applications.

Hope to get the best one.

Now, have to figure out the suitable days to attend an interview. The earlier, the better.
Still haven't figured it out yet.

Apa-apa pun, Alhamdulillah.

Saturday, April 2, 2011

delay waves opportunity away

Done with my resume.

Had to go endorse my exam transcript because apparently no uni logo or authority whatsoever is written on the transcript in the portal and when you print it out. A silly thing if you ask me.

First went to the Law Department, then they said go to the Examination Unit, then they asked me to go to the Academic Affairs. Apparently, the Examination Unit has no authority to endorse it. Why?? I don't know. Hope it's a relevant reason.

So went to the Academic Affairs, handed my transcript, hoping to get in endorsed so I can send it to the firms by today. A simple request. Get it endorse. Just take the rubber stamp with the uni logo and the authority and that's it. Doesn't take more than 5 minutes.

They asked me to take the transcript tomorrow.

Good management much?

Should I be pissed?

Just hope they really mean it when they say tomorrow. Hello, this is somebody' future we're dealing with. And I want my transcript all endorsed by TOMORROW. Not the next day, or later, or next week. Hell to the no.

I'm being emotional. I know. So what? hahaha

Friday, April 1, 2011

Baru habis Law Soc Family Day.

Ok lah...Enjoy la jugak. Not to mention embarrassing myself... T_______T

Now need to sleep. Shower doesn't help.


Wednesday, March 30, 2011

after two days...


 please don't hide beneath the clouds again.

at least not until my clothes are all dry. ;p

'awak rindu saya? terharunye!'
Yes. Although we complaint, saying we hate the blazing hot glaring sun, but we miss it terribly when it's gone.

It's such cold rainy day, we're looking for something dumb to do, hey buddy, I see that you are freezing too!

The weather is cold. Damp. The sky is gloomy and dark. The corridor of my block on my level is quiet, and wet by the traces of rain.

It has been raining non-stop. Since the early morning. The rain keeps pouring and pouring, fortunately in small doses. As I am writing this, most of us here in this college is either sleeping soundly under the blanket or watching movies transferred from friends, or for those who are really industrious and dedicated, completing the assignments given. Yes, rain is a bless (Hujan itu Rahmat), but it also hinders us from doing activities that we can do freely.

So what did a boring, lazy law student do in a weather like this? Nothing is probably the right answer, but for this girl, when the cold weather comes, that's where she gets hungry really fast. So this morning, she woke up early and along with her 3 friends, drove to Changlun and had a warm breakfast of nasi lemak in a new place. And how she adore this new place!! The stall is currently her new stop for having nasi lemak. Cheap and delicious!!

And then later in the afternoon, we went to KFC pulak. I ordered myself Cheezy Wedges and hot milo, since I was already full thanks to the nasi lemak.hehehe! Had fun eating in the cold weather. Bajet macam kat oversea la konon! Ceh!

The next day, today that is, we went, quite randomly to Alor Star to enjoy 2 free breakfast meal at McDonalds! Weeeee!!! It has been so long since I last ate McD breakfast! I love their hotcakes and hashbrowns! Yummehhh!! There were 5 of us, and we got to enjoy the early morning scenery that we hardly had the chance to see due to sleeping and busy life. LOL! Then we went to accompany Atiah to buy a new cellphoone ( her old one has been officially declared dead. causation: UNKNOWN). It's a pretty red Hazel Sony Ericsson cellphone, and I think I am starting to love the phone, because of the lovely red colour!

Thanks to our little breakfast trip, we were 30 minutes late to Jurisprudence class! Erk! But better late than never, kan? kan? kan? haha!

*photos will be added later. If the internet is being super kind and super fast. Insya Allah. =p

Monday, March 28, 2011

too much points, but where's the point?

Hello everyone! Assalamualaikum! Konnichiwa! Gutentag! Bonjour!

I just love languages. I can't really explain why but I find learning new languages is fun and somewhat cultural! It just makes you want to go see the world more.

Yesterday I submitted my Criminal Procedure assignment dengan jayanya. Phew! A relieve of submitting it, I should say, but at the same time I can't help feeling anxious because of the contents of my assignment is not as much as my classmates. They wrote until 20 pages long, 12 pages more than me! What did you guys put in that essay? huhu. I guess it is a psychological thing. It has been planted in our brains for a long time. The more pages the assignment is, the better. I'm not sure about other universities in other countries, but that is the case in where I'm studying, and I am not excluded from being influenced by this mindset.

I don't know whether it's a good thing, or a bad thing. For one thing it makes you want to do more, or work harder to gain more information. That's the good part. But what is the point if there's no point? hehehe! Even my jurisprudence lecturer said that it doesn't matter how many pages you write. What matters is the content. Kalau content penuh and in every page tu ada content yang memang relevant, then it's awesome! You'll definitely get good marks and ada chance nak rebut gelaran pelajar Senarai Dekan. It is only a waste if you write so much but produce so little. A waste of time, and a waste of energy, not to mention a waste of paper, thus contributing to more trees that have to be chopped down, resulting to hot weather that cause global warming, in which will soon affect the earth and strikes fear on those who believe the prophecy of the Mayans about the end of the world. Haha! That's too much, I think. =p

I'm not saying that I'm doing it the right way; putting only the necessary info, which is why I don't have much pages for my assignment. Nonononono! (russell peters style). I am guilty of writing too much for my finals. Hardly I submit my answers with only 5 pages of answer script. The minimum is perhaps 10. hehe! I just think that when it comes to situation like this, there is no final say. Which is why it is perhaps best to have a draft first before writing it all down. Sure, we can gather as much information as we want, but it doesn't mean that all of them must be stuffed in. Too much info might cause confusion and make the content to become irrelevant to the topic. I agree with my lecturer that what is important is the message, and how we want the reader to receive the message.

It is best to be precise and straight to the point. I mean, how many of us who like reading articles that is long and lengthy? Too many paragraphs but there's only one that gives us the answer. Just like most of my posts. Most of my posts are long. Plus with no pictures and all, it is not a surprise for me not to have many followers. hahaha!

Sunday, March 27, 2011

short update


I am writing this while waiting for Maghrib and while searching for a few oversea universities that I can apply to hopefully in pursuing my Masters...really want to further overseas. More experience, plus I love travelling, get to meet handsome people, get to live in a different place with different cultures, doesn't that sound just exciting!? =D

Skipped lecture today. Oopss! Sis, jangan report kat mummy ye! heh heh! need to really complete my Criminal Procedure assignment which is due today. Tonight to be exact, during class. Yes, we have night class. And it's fun because you don't have to wear formal attires and...well, that's just it. That's the only fun part. =p
As usual, I am prone to do last minute assignments, and this assignments is not excluded. We were to write an essay about our opinion on Section 51A of the Criminal Procedure Code, and all that I can give and all that I have in my mind to write it down is only for 5 pages long. Eeekk! Cuak jugak weh, since most of my friends said theirs is 12-20 pages long, sure as hell you are going to panic. 5 pages?!! biar betul, biar betul betul! hahaha...mesti lagu tu lekat dalam kepala nanti. LOL! But it's too late to redo everything now, so I just have to submit this assignment and pray that I don't get the worst mark ever. >.<

By the way, yesterday was Earth Hour! yay! I managed to join in with the campaign. hehehe! Unfortunately, didn't really get to have it with my friends here because everyone is busy with their assignments. And after that, I went to watch the football match along with another friend of mine, Azlan. It was fun! It has been so long since I watched a live football match at the stadium, and as for Azlan, it was his very first time! yay to u! haha! And what made it become more exciting was when my classmate scored the first goal for our uni!!! Woot! woot!! nasib baik kitorg tak ikut cheerleading sekali. hahahaha! Good job bro! That was a nice shot too!!! ada peluang menang anugerah MVP ni. ;)

Ok lah, that is all that I want to write about. Need to get ready for tonight's class. Toodles!

Saturday, March 26, 2011

in the darkness of night, we are to switch the light...

That title almost rhyme, isn't it?? say yes, say yes! hahaha....okayy childish...stop.

I went to a Professorial Talk this morning. Given by Prof.John Fairhurst, the head of law from the Birmingham City University. He flew all the way from the UK, and landed on this secluded university way up in the north just to give a talk, about EU Law on Taxation and Goods.'s not everyday you have a professor from the Big Ben country to come and give a talk, so it really is an honour to have him come here. The talk is really goooodddd. I don't know why I didn't feel sleepy listening to him. Cara dia bagi talk tu biasa je, macam lecturer aku mengajar...we got our own handouts and he explained based on the powerpoint presentation prepared. If in normal lectures I'll be focussed for 15-30 minutes, and then start chattering and text messaging with my friends. haha! I don't know which part that charmed me to stay awake for two hours; the fact that I was sitting on the second front row seats directly facing the Professor, or the fact that he has this awesome British accent that when I listened to it, I felt I'm in a lecture hall in some university in UK! lol! It truly is one good talk. And since it has something in connection with International Trade Law, which I am very interested in, it just gets more of my attention. Maybe I should start googling about Birmingham University to see their courses for Masters students. ;)

So after the talk, my friend and I went to Changlun ( a small city 15 minutes away from our uni) to take our passport pictures taken. Because we were applying for studying abroad (Prof.Fairhurst is willing to take application) and we need to have passports ready, you know, just in case. Muahahahaha! Too good to be true eh? applying for a place to sleep do our Pupillage after we complete our studies here. So, to apply, we need to send money (rasuah) resume, and for the resume we need to have a picture for the respective firm to recognise us as one of the wanted criminals applicants. Ingat senang nak dapat firm? Kalau yang dah ada orang tolong carikan and tolong 'cop'kan tempat takper gak. For those who have no contacts, it's hard. Anyway, our pictures turned out good. We looked like models corporate-ish with our blazers and confident smile yang dibuat secara tipu-tipu. Hahaha!

Now, I just woke up from my afternoon nap, or should I say evening nap? I plan to go and watch my friend today. He's a footballer, and they have a match against UTP tonight at 8.45 p.m. Which brings me to a dilemma. It's Earth Hour today, and lights are to be switched off for an hour, lagi lama lagi baik, tapi takut terjadinya accident pulak nanti. Tak kira la accident kereta ke, accident terbuat anak secara involuntary ke, we all must be prepared right? lol! I am supporting Earth Hour. I'm switching off lights at the exact hour. But it would be wrong for me to switch the lights in my room but go to the stadium, which clearly have bigger, brighter lights and cheering 'Syabooyah!!' at that friend of mine. Hahahaha! Takkan nak switch off lampu time main game. Kang tertendang benda yang tak sepatutnya ditendang. Bukak lampu je, semua terguling, tergolek-golek atas padang. Hahaha! 

So yeah, people please switch off the lights in supporting Earth Hour. As we speak, mother Earth is dying. We can see the effects; and we definitely want to stop this to have a better place to stay. Who doesn't right? Buat sapa-sapa yang percaya apocaplypse tu is on 2012, lagilah kena support Earth Hour ni. Mana tau, apocalypse tu ditunda ke tahun lain, boleh idup lagi setahun. huhuhu! Support Earth Hour! Switch off all lights, for an hour. Just an hour. 1 hour. That's all. It doesn't hurt anyone in doing it. Not much as we hurt mother Earth with all the pollution and the technology and the war and the scientific research. She needs her own time to rest too. So lets give her. Just one hour. 

Help save Earth. Just 1 hour.
Credits to yahoo! Images.

Friday, March 25, 2011

I should, but I didn't

what I should be doing.
-getting my resume done and email it to the respective firms as soon as possible.
-completing my criminal procedure assignment. Section 51 & 51A...consequences and effect of non-compliance.
-make a draft on my part for the evidence group assignment. On bad character.
-Settle my laundry.
-Pos barang.
-Start doing some brief notes and reading. The final exam draft is out and I still have not take a look at it.
-Keep searching for law firms to submit my resume for my 9 months pupillage. The more, the better. Considering that my results are 4.0 satisfactory, it is highly unlikely for me to be accepted right away in a legal firm. >.<

What I am doing instead.
-Tumblr-ing.Sumpah addictive!
-Blogging. Or else there won't be this post... =p
-Watching movies..the same ones that I've watched for the umpteenth time...
-sleep. Kalau nak mengantuk pun, paksa jugak mata tu suruh tido...wakakakaka!!
*and it goes back to the first one, and it continues on until the day ends.

If there is an award for best procrastinator, I should be given one! hahaha...Time macam ni semua benda rasa macam malasssss sangat nak buat. Bila dah nak dekat dateline tu, mulalah panik...cakap padan muka kat diri sendiri sape suruh tak upah orang buat assignment awal-awal....time tu mulalah salahkan internet yang secara magiknya lembab, masa yang secara tiba-tibanya jadi cepat, makan pun order nasi lemak bungkus dari budak yang jual blok ke blok tu. And the most thing that will definitely a last minute student will do when they have to finish the assignment a day before dateline....skip tido!!! Kalau sebelum ni takut tido lambat, kot-kot ada makcik jual karipap tetiber ketuk tingkap bilik tingkat 2/3/4, time buat assignment, kawan kat belakang masuk bilik pun tak sedar. Nasib baik kawan, kalau tak...... O____o!!!! hahaha...

bila dah siap, muka pun jadi camni. kawan nak say 'hi', lecturer nak suruh jawab soalan tutorial pun takut nak suruh. haha!

Only Robinson Crusoe had everything done by Friday. -anon.-

 Get it? ;)

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

I'm gonna get married in 2015 it me you're looking for???

Haha....I can't help but picturing a scene from Sacry Movie 4 everytime I listened to this Lionel Richie's song...dah elok dah lagu ni mood jiwang, dirosakkan oleh movie tu yang sememangnya tak ada kerja lain selain memerli & mempersendakan movie-movie yang diorang tak suka...

Sekarang ni, kebanyakan kawan-kawan saya dah terkena ilmu Tok Moh...hehe...Tok Moh ni ada buat jampi yang memang akan berjangkit dari satu individu ke individu yang lain. Sapa-sapa yang lemah semangat and tak sanggup nak terima kenyataan, memang akan asyik terbayanggg jer benda ni. Side effect boleh berlanjutan sampai berhari-hari atau at least sebulan.

Ok lah...lets just go straight to the point yeah? recently, a classmate of mine bought this book. The title is if I'm not mistaken 'Cinta, Jodoh & Perkahwinan' written by Eddy Rosyadi Mohd Samsury. It tells about our own potential & our compatibility particularly on love life. The way of determining it is kinda unique, which is by using our birthday...and there's methods and guidelines for us to make the calculations. And the fun or the perhaps the creepy part is, most details and explanations about our personality are true. There's also method of calculating our compatibility with our couple, by combining the birthdays together... It's a really good book, if you're looking for guidelines untuk sesiapa yang sedang mencari identiti atau personaliti diri, and also for those yang boring and tak tahu nak buat apa-apa...this book might come in! But one thing should be noted though, it acts merely as a guideline and nothing more...maybe from this book we know our advantages and shortcomings and how we can deal with our problems to become a better person. It should not be taken seriously. Ye la...benda pasal jodoh and rezeki ni semua ketentuan Ilahi, so kalau nak percaya sebijik seketul benda dalam buku ni, takut mendekati syirik pulak...

Anyways, this friend of mine, got the gelaran Tok Moh because of this book. Mula-mula tu dia start saja-saja je dengan aku & sorang lagi kawan aku, sebab time tu Civil Procedure presentation and kitorg tengah boring tahap nazak (told you this book can come in handy when you're bored) so, dia pun keluarkanlah buku ni and start buat seperti yang ditunjukkan...we were entertained for a while, because of how accurate it explains about the personality...and it started to go viral in the class...lepas sorang, sorang yang mintak tolong kirakan birthday dia...ada yang mintak tolong kira bila dia akan kahwin...mine is on 2015...erk! semua ada dalam buku bertambah excited la sapa yang kiraannya tunjuk semua yang baik...ada gak yang frust sebab maybe the calulation showed that she and the boyfriend are not that compatible... It is a fun thing to do...ntah berapa kali dah buku tu bertukar-tukar tangan...aku rasa kalau Tok Moh caj orang yang pinjam buku tu, cukup duit beli novel, takpun beli handset biasa.. IPhone mungkin tak mampu kot...hahaha

As for me, I didn't ask for any couple compatibility counting. Because at the moment, I'm a lone wolf...ala-ala masih mencari la ni...hehe...
But it made me think about this matter. Sebelum ni ada jugak terpikir, tapi kadang-kadang je. Plus with my friends around me who mostly have found their soulmate (Insya Allah), and plus I'm getting older...(i'm gonna be 20...(ngade!)) and this is one thing that I ought to think & be sure about.

One thing I'm certain is that I'm really fussy! yes, if I have a bf, I tend to try to make him the way I want him to be, which is not a good thing. Of course, it's good to tell him to change things for him to improve, but to make him change to be the guy that YOU want, is definitely not a long-lasting relationship. I have a hard time trusting him too...because I have bad experience with guys...experiences that definitely took away my trust from them almost completely. So I think, due to this, it's gonna be a long time for my parents to have a visitor coming to the house with the 'hajat untuk memetik bunga di laman'...kalau ada pun untuk adik aku kot..hahahaha....I tak kisah you nak langkah bendul, langkahlah...tapi pastikan jangan tersembam or terpleot sudah...nanti merah muka tahan malu...wakakaka...

I have some criterias that I really want my future soulmate to have...(nak jugak tulis ni...hoho).
Of course, yang general tu wajiblah kena ada...tau agama, ada akhlak, ada kerja & cukup income nak support family...handsome?? naaa...that's a bonus...hehe..
One thing I'm hoping he will have is the love of reading....
yessssss....I find guys who reads are sweet and somehow hot....(muntah cendol!) even I berangan nak jumpa my future hubby kat bookstore....I just find that really sweet. Because I just love being surrounded by books...I can spend hours just walking around in bookstore, just like a shopaholic can spend hours of her time in shopping malls. I love the smell of books...especially old books, even if they made me! yesterday, we went to Popular Bookstore in Gurney Plaza, Penang, and I was like...stunned by how big it is...tapi takleh lawan Kinokuniya la, duh...because most of the bookstore I went to are not exciting enough...I felt like staying there...haha...So with a good, charming hubby who reads, it just adds the colour of imagination in the house. At least we have other things to talk about apart from work and daily activities...and what's best than reading a classic book or a poem together in the evening, and telling stories to each other?? (ye, saya sangat 'literature'

And don't forget music and adventurous! Especially classical music...which I adore the most. One thing I have in my wishlist is to watch an opera...I almost had the chance, but unfortunately, I have to let it was harddd...I was feeling down for a week! T____T
He doesn't need to have the skills to play an instrument, as long as he has the musical passion in him. At least I can share my excitement at watching an orchestra or a musical show with him. And I'll pay him back by being a good company & supporter when he watches his favourite football team..but if he supports MU, we'll be foes throughout the!

I know, I know, too good to be true aight? Which is why I don't intend to put any hopes in it. Reality is no better than fantasy. To some maybe it is, and it is such a blessing and fortunate that they have found their perfect match. But for me, there is no perfect match. There never is. It's just how well we support each other in overcoming the weakness and shortcomings. It's by being imperfect that makes the journey adventurous and interesting. Like reading a good book...full with twist and turns, conflicts and unexpected hidden plots that makes you keep turning the pages till the end...if throughout the whole story, there's no conflict; just all good things, where everything is made perfect and safe, then where's the excitement??

Saturday, March 19, 2011

Antara 2 buku di tepi bantalku

At this time, I am supposed to read my evidence notes for tomorrow's LPQB interview. They are coming to evaluate us in order to determine whether we should be exempted from taking ILKAP and whether we are still eligible to be recognized. The effect is huge; if we succeed in convincing them, we are therefore a recognized college of law and we don't have to sit for CLP (certificate for Legal Practice), which clearly a difficult task for all law students, locally and oversea.

Nevertheless, I am tempted to write about this. Lets just say I have a slight moment of conscience. And I hope that this helps me and can act as a reminder for future days. I think I'll continue in Malay…bahasa jiwa bangsa….muahaha

kat katil aku, di sebelah bantal ada dua buku; satu buku tu novel tajuk 'the swan thieves', which is a really good novel. Satu lagi buku yang sememangnya menjadi pegangan mereka yang menganut agama yang sama dengan aku…ya…korang mesti leh agak kan…Al Quran…yang aku punya sekali dengan tafsir…

Aku mesti kena ada buku novel untuk dibaca. Regardless of what genre, romance ke, science fiction ke, humour ke, anything, as long as it's a novel…an English novel. Saya tak minat sangat baca novel Melayu, sebab saya rasa novel Melayu sangat jiwang & tak kena dengan jiwa. Buat pembaca-pembaca tegar novel melayu, mintak maaf byk2 kalau korang terasa dengan statement ni ye…

Anyways, between the novels and the Al-Quran, yang paling setia dengan aku ialah Al-Quran tafsir tu. Sebabnya, aku beli tafsir tu time aku semester 3/4, and it has been accompanying me ever since. Dia lah peneman time aku tido, time aku online kat atas katil, time aku nangis sorang-sorang for no reason, dia lah yang ada & menyaksikannya.

Tapi, I take the existence for granted. I didn't treat Tafsir tu dengan cara yang sepatutnya. Aku jarang sangat luangkan masa aku dengan dia. Aku perasan adanya dia kat situ, tapi aku memilih novel mat salleh instead untuk dibaca sebelum aku tidur. Time lepas solat pun, aku jarang sangat bukak and baca, even if it is only for one page. Tak banyak mana pun. Tapi bila novel pulak, aku sanggup baca sampai habis satu chapter, regardless of how sleepy I have been.

Tadi, time lepas solat Maghrib, tiba-tiba pulak aku teringin nak baca & nak pegang tafsir tu. Bentuk dia comel, macam diary, and the cover is in purple, which is my favourite colour. Aku beli pun sebab aku suka dengan colour dia. Tiba-tiba pulak rasa rindu nak baca, nak tengok tulisan dia, nak tengok maksud ayat-ayat yang ada dalam Tafsir tu. So aku pun ambik and bukak. I realised the pages that I read is not as much as the novel. Baru beberapa muka surat je yang aku baru baca. Penanda dia masih lagi di surah yang pertama. And before I'm about to read it, aku perasan bahagian tepi dia berhabuk, ada debu2 berkumpul di tepi dan di atas permukaan, sebab lama sangat tak baca. Biar je kat sebelah bantal tu. Rasa sebak, sedih & malu, sebab aku banyak meminta tapi sangat sikit aku memberi, untuk menunjukkan rasa sayang & penghargaan aku pada Tuhan. Tuhan tak mintak banyak, Dia hanya meminta kita untuk mengingatiNya, memuji-muji kebesaranNya, dan menghayati ayat-ayat yang diturunkanNya untuk dijadikan panduan & peringatan. It is a small, simple request, yet aku rasa berat sangat nak buat. Kalau benda lain semua cepat je aku buat, nak karok laju je, walaupun kaki seluar tersangkut kat escalator pun aku sanggup tebal muka semata-mata nak melalak nyanyi lagu Nur Nilam Sari. Tapi aku malu pulak nak baca Al-Quran tu dengan suara yang jelas dan terang. Bukannya baca depan ramai orang, dalam bilik je pun. Roomate pulak sorang je.

I feel really guilty…sangat bersalah dan malu sebab mengabaikan apa yang sepatutnya menjadi keutamaan. Tak tau kenapa malam ni rasa rindu sangat nak baca Al-Quran. Alhamdulillah, aku baca 2 pages, and baca sekali tafsir dia.Yes, aku tau 2 mukasurat tu tak banyak pun. Tapi bagi aku, itu satu progres. Bukan senang untuk hati aku terbuka nak baca. Most of the time aku sibuk nak menghadap facebook, nak tengok movie, nak download Glee…sampai 3 kali attempt semata-mata nak tengok latest episode dia. Tapi aku takde pun semangat yang macam tu when it comes tu Al-Quran. Tak pernah aku bersemangat nak membaca, nak fahamkan maksud, nak habiskan satu surah, or satu juzuk. Iman aku memang masih lemah, nipis sangat…kulit bawang pun tebal lagi.

I just hope that after writing this, I can gradually improve. Aku harap apa yang aku tulis ni bukan tamat kat sini je. Bukan untuk bacaan saja-saja. I want to improve. I want to have a better life. I want a blessed blissful life. Tapi semua tu takkan dapat jadi kenyataan kalau aku tak berusaha sebanyak yang aku minta. Like a phrase; you reap what you sow. Sebanyak mana yang kau kerjakan atau usahakan, sebanyak itu lah hasilnya.

All I'm asking and hoping now is a stronger heart, a stronger spirit and a clearer thought.

Thursday, March 17, 2011

just this

It is cold tonight...

I just had a plate of spicy Thai fried rice at this one stall, and luckily it didn't effect my digestive system...lepas ni tak nak dah aku order nasi goreng kat situ...tak kisah la nasi goreng Thai ke, China ke, Nigeria ke, Somalia ke, pedas gilerrrr.....makan pulak sambil tgk wrestling...elok la sangat...macam takde channel lain nk tengok...tak educational langsung...hahaha

Anyways, hajat nak menonton dan khatamkan cerita Glee season 2 epi 16 tidak kesampaian disebabkan arus internet yang sememangnya tidak sehebat arus ombak di lautan..very the lambat okay...! aku rasa kalau ada lumba lari ngan siput pig ni, siput tu, now I'm trying to watch it again, trying for the third time, and I hope PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE!!! let me from the beginning to the complete's the Regionals episode! Come on, have some pity on me...huhu

As I was waiting for the streaming to be completed, I watched 'The King's Speech' movie...and damn, that is one hell of a movie! My dear King, you deserve the Oscar! You truly deserve them! A beautiful, inspiring movie, and wonderful performances from all casts! I can watch it over and over again and never get tired of it. A must watch!! tapi kalau untuk orang yang minat movie menari-nari, cite ganas-ganas, yang fast paced genre type of movie, then here's an early warning; the movie will make you go to sleep, because there won't be any sort of excitement or element of surprise in The King's Speech. But still, I can give a 5 star for this movie. I just love it!!! =)

Now, as I'm writing this, I've finished watching the movie, and still the streaming is not complete. I'm writing this post while listening to Flying Picket's 'Only You'. Hehe...such a nice, relaxing song...I love acapellas! They're amazingly talented! =)

So, tengah-tengah malam macam ni, dengan rasa bosan, of course our mind will go wandering around jugak. And out of nowhere, for no reason, my mind came across this statement made by this one classmate of mine. This classmate of mine said to me, and I suspected there is a tiny bit of arrogance in the way the statement was delivered to me. Wanna know the statement? lets just say that this classmate of mine was dissatisfied with someone, and this classmate of mine said 'I will not and will never be good to that person'.

Okayyy....there was a tiny bit amount of arrogance and boastful in the tone. Will not and never will? If there's anything I learnt from my past experiences is that you don't ever said things like that as it will definitely backfire. Dalam bahasa kebangsaannya, jangan lah kita terlalu membenci sesuatu, sebab takut nanti terkena batang hidung sendiri. Kalau tak kena batang hidung mungkin kena kat buku lali, tulang kering ke, kat tangan kaki ke...haha...(sila abaikan statement tak lawak ni).

It's almost the same principle as when we see someone who is being overconfident with something. And in the end, it turned out bad. Similarly, it is best not to abhor a person so much, as in most cases, the emotion will play its trick on you and instead of abhoring and hating and staying away from the hated person, it turned out otherwise. What otherwise means, I leave it to your own interpretation. Sure, you can say that it is your own personal problem and your own right whether to hate or like a person, but what does that make you? Certainly not a better person than the one you're hating. Ok lah, maybe that person you hate is memang buruk tahap volcano Krakatoa la dia punya perangai, tak sebijak stephen hawking and complexion pun tahap cukup-cukup makan je. Sure, you have all the reason in the world to hate, but trust me, that will not make you feel any better. Been there, done that. hahaha...and what's funny is that you'll never be satisfied until you see this person suffer. Because all this while you have it in your head that he or she is such a wicked person, and you want other people to see him or her the way you do, and when they don't, it just dissatisfies you more. Makin geram pulak tgk orang tu gelak, senyum, acting like he or she is the one of the likeable person, when in reality, they hardly don't.

That's the difference. They hold on to this one principle: ignorance is bliss. Kadang-kadang buat bodoh ni is the best way. People will keep on talking all day every second , even until you die pun, people will still talk. There's no way the mouth can be shut. So, instead of going around telling people about yourself and what kind of person you actually are, might as well, you sit down quietly, have a nice up of tea while reading a good book, enjoying the calming surrounding. That's a better way of living instead of kept thinking of what people think and say about you.

Aku sebenarnya dah beratus kilometer lari topik...tapi takpelah...related jugak ni...hehe...
So, to this dear friend of mine...ok la...since you've said that, there's no way you can take it back. Will not and will never be eh? be it. I'd like to see how it goes. Not that I'm praying the worst of you, but sometimes, such arrogance must be put to a stop, and really, you should taste your own medicine...and when you do, I can assure you that it will be one of the most bitter thing that you'll ever force yourself to swallow. Nevertheless, if it all turns out good to you, then congratulations and are one of the fortunate people granted with a fortunate and blissful life...and instead of jinxing, I'm just gonna be happy for you, just for a while, and then...moving on.