Wednesday, December 31, 2008

New Year

A few more hours to go before we bid adieu to year 2008 and welcomes excitedly 2009. Wow, how fast the time flies. It felt like it was only yesterday that I celebrated 2008 and now I'm celebrating its end.

New year, new beginning and new life. My past life have not been a satisfactory, not even deserving a praise. I made many silly blunders, offended many, disappoint some and failed to improve myself to become a better person than I am now. Well, I hope 2009 brings a different wind and a different way for me to improve. Honestly throughout those years I almost felt like I am about to have depression, but thankfully I managed to void myself from being one. Still, it is not impossible. There's always a chance for me to have such problems. I don't like to express my feelings...I prefer to have them kept it all to myself. And of course, such way offers higher chance for depression.

Thus, I want to make 2009 as a turning point of my life. It is going to be difficult. It's going to be challenging. It is going to be more bitter than sweet. But this time I want to give myself a shot. I am not promising anything, as I know I'm not really a person that can stay standing for all that comes. But I am trying. I will try to make myself to try. At least I have nothing else to lose or regret. I am tired of being a person of regret.

The worst bankrupt in the world is the man who has lost his
enthusiasm. Let a man lose everything else in the world but
his enthusiasm and he will come through again to success.
- H. W. Arnold

Monday, December 1, 2008


OMG!!!!!!! I am sooooooooooooo stressed right now. I thought that previous exam was the most stressful one, but surprisingly, there is something else that is so way having a higher level of stress. Kudos for this problem for making me having sleepless nights for so many days...*claps and cheers*
Seriously, I don't know why and how can I get myself into this problem. Haha!One moment I agreed to take part, and then the next thing, I was like "ok, what have I gotten myself into?" isn't that silly of me?? Haha... Until now, I still cannot believe I survived mentally. Hehehehe!!! What am I talking about now???....even I myself don't know. huhu...i think i really AM about to lose my mind. Hehe!
Nevertheless, taking part in this thing is not at ALL BAD... I do gain some benefits from this. I agree with the phrase 'everything happens for a reason'. Well, I took a big risk, which I know has the high possibility for me to unable to carry the responsibility. This is perhaps my biggest risk attempt yet. Haha! But thanks to this risk, I have something to learn, although not completely. Of course, I don't expect anything much, since I know my limit and capabilities, but at least I am not wasting my time doing nothing but watching tv at home. Hehe!