Just a bit more.
You can definitely do this. Sure, it's difficult, much difficult than before and from what you expected, but remember the finishing result will be satisfying. Fight that negative, passive energy that is swirling and surrounding you now and welcome the positive and active. Force is necessary at this time. Must force yourself. Must do it to the very best as you can. Everyone else is going through the same thing too, and yes, perhaps what they're having is easier but take this as an advantage. At least you know what your limitations and your weaknesses.There's always chances to improve, the only difference is either you choose to take the chance or not.
Come on. Just this one. Consider this as trial and preparation for a heavier burden and a bigger responsibility to come.