Thursday, September 30, 2010


No, not that kind of sick...

no coughs, no flu, no fever, no pms or whatever....

just feeling sick.


for no reason why, this feeling suddenly came.

well, it's about time though...

lots of things....craps...shits (if i choose to write it out the way i feel right now)...happened and is happening...

perhaps when they happened, i was emotionless...didn't think of anything but to get it sorted out and be done with it.

now that it's coming back to me...i really feel so sick right now.

or in other words....

i'm just tired.

No, not exhausted

Tired...fed up...I'm done...that's enough...kind of tired.

sometimes when we thought things are going fine and going turns out to be something that the mind made up as a make us feel like everything's fine.

the mind lied. to its very own body.

nothing is EVER fine in the world.

though i always hear people say that the best way to live life is to think positive...deep down inside there's still doubt...

sometimes being too certain about something can cause bad ending....because that is the ending that is least expected.

when such event many of us can still stick to staying positive?

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

In Kuching

Just heard the announcement on tv just now

The same old uncle gave out the announcement. Come to think of it, he must have a really good and blessed life. He's been giving out Ramadhan and Raya announcements eversince I was a kid. And still he looks just the same...


I can't believe Raya will be within 2 days. It's so fast

And as usual I'm celebrating Raya with my family and relatives in Kuching, Sarawak. Normally every year we celebrate in Kuching. Only few times we celebrate it in Perak.

So now, as I'm writing this, while watching Glee we are all starting to get busy preparing for Raya.

Unfortunately for me, I won't have the chance to sembahyang Raya... =(
(no need for me to say why, kan?)

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to all muslims in the world. May all past faults and mistakes be forgotten..