Expect The Unexpected!

This is the day...the day of truth...the day to face one of the things that manage to make my heart beat fast, my hands cold and shivers on my neck...

Ok..cut the crap.. That's too metaphoric and too poetic...

It's not that big of a matter actually. The words up there is suitable for those who are getting married, or who is entering the International Moot Competition and those who are up to the most important job and task to do! Back to the main scope of the title...This refers to...

My exam results!!!

And yes, I was expecting something, but it turned out otherwise. All I can say is Alhamdulillah and I'm very grateful to Allah S.W.T for the results obtained.

It's not that high...but it's improving. Much better than previous semesters. And no, I didn't make it to the Dean's list. A list that is a dream for all university students. A list that I so dyingly wished to be in once..during the early years of my semesters as a law student. But now, I don't know why, but I seem to have no interest at all to make it to the Dean's list. That is so unambitious of me!

Perhaps now I'm more focussed on improving myself for my own benefit than trying to prove myself to people. Before, I studied aiming for the Dean's list just for the purpose that people will notice me and have a certain impression that I want them to see me as. But now, I think proving to yourself that you can improve and be a better person is what matters first. So, it doesn't matter if I didn't reach the list, as long as I know that I'm improving myself, my personality as I move on. Maybe my results doesn't help much for me to acquire my dream job, but I hope the improvement I did to myself will help.

I know some...well..most may not agree with how I think. But that doesn't matter. Everybody's different. I'm satisfied with what I have because it's worth the effort I gave. And I know if I put more effort and work harder, the reward too will be better.

And the best thing is...I have no regret and disappointment.