Sunday, July 4, 2010


Love is a battlefield...dengar macam ganas je kan?

But that is the fact...

Even without machine guns, or bombs or rifles or kereta kebal, it is one challenging thing, body, mind and soul. Kadang-kadang kalau fizikal kuat tapi hati and mental lembut pun tak guna jugak. Akan kalah, mcm brasil n argentina!

Uiks...apsal tiba2 masuk bab bola ni? rewind2! is a battlefield. Against what? Well, main thing is against yourself and the environment around. Sekarang ni temptations memang byk. Bukak tv tgk love story berlambak. Tgk wayang pun berbaris love story movies, naik LRT tgk merpati tak sejoli tgh main2 buih cinta...huih....memang banyak...kalau ikutkn hati, memang akan tewas.

Tapi tu la...ikut hati mati...ikut rasa binasa... Indeed, being in lovey dovey world is like being in heaven...that is in utter bliss...Everything seems so perfect and kata kentut petai pun bau strawberi...haha! Semua benda kalau boleh nak buat sama-sama. Makan sekali, phone number pun kalau boleh nk nombor lebih kurang sama, gayut every night, say good morning everyday, skype everyday, semua la nak sekali...takkan rasa jemu menatap wajahnya yang handsome/beautiful tu. There are even those who doesn't mind, even willing to spend big amount of money just to impress and make their partner happy. Ala-ala berkorban apa sahaja asalkan dia happy la ni...But when the bliss comes to an end, that's when those lovers feels as if living in hell. Time tu mula lah nak mengungkit kisah lama, sapa yang paling banyak 'berbakti', banyak keluar duit, banyak call, banyak top up, semua tu la diungkit semula. Ada yang tak dapat terima kenyataan mengalami syndrome frust menonggeng berbulan-bulan or even bertahun-tahun...sampai diri sendiri pun dah tak terurus; belajar tak masuk, kerja tak fokus, makan pun takde selera....last2 bila jumpa kawan semua terkejut tgk dirinya yang dulu sihat bahagia jadi kurus menderita...

Baru-baru ni, ada sorang member aku dah dikecewakan dalam percintaan. Memang frust sangat dia...because it's first love...which last people often say...hmm....and I feel so sorry for that bloke seeing him like a zombie with nowhere else to go. Yup, he smiles and laughs and jokes around, but I know he misses that lady of his, because everytime we talk, there's always a topic about her that would be brought up. He blames himself not being good enough, not being attentive enough, which caused her to leave. But that to me is just bull...i know that bloke and i can say that he really cared, and still does, about that lady. He kept thinking of her, and despite various attempt he made to forget her, it all fails.

See the effect? That is why it is called a battlefield. Because just like a real battlefield, only the strong one survives. So you fail in what? It's not the end of the world. Of course, it hurts so much, but not too much to kill you. I don't find killing yourself after heartbreak of love is considered as romantic...cinta mati la konon...that act only gives you a place in hell. Memang mula-mula tu rasa frust sangat, akan ambil masa yang lama jugak untuk recover. Ada yang terus serik to have another yours truly. Until now, I'm kinda paranoid of having relationships, and I don't know why.

Perhaps it is because of the lackness of positivity inside me. Like that friend of mine, I blame myself not being good enough. And that is the most important thing. POSITIVE. Every cloud has a silver lining. Everything happens for a reason. No use of blaming fate, because it already happened. What we can do is bounce back and look at the past no more. Remind ourselves there's someone better. Of course, we always think that he/she is the one created or meant for us. But who are we to know? Kalau betul dia orangnya, then we don't have to worry, because he/she will go nowhere. Kalau jodoh takkan ke mana kan? And if they're not, just be patient. God will never give the worst, God knows best, right?

p/s: aku pun tak tahu kenapa aku post title ni....maybe sbb dah takde idea tapi tangan gatal nk menulis...or maybe i've been bitten by the love bug...who knows!!?? ahaks!! =P

p/s: this post is based solely on my personal opinion. Anyone offended by this post, I sincerely apologise...

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