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Seriously, I felt really bad for withdrawing from Baksis on a very last minute... I was really looking forward to it, since this is my first time entering...but the sudden fever has caused me to cancel the intention...

To all... I am dreadfully sorry for this incident. I know this act of mine may and has caused some to be angry and disappointed and dissatisfied, but honestly offending everyone is the last thing that I want to do. I felt very guilty doing this..but I also know that if I don't I will cause trouble and bother too if I decided to go along. I was in a dilemma having to decide which, because I know it's my responsibility to give commitment till the very end of the project but at the same time, I didn't have the strength and my parents insisted me to go home, fearing that if I go, I will be a burden to the family.

I am not as strong or as courageous as other people. And perhaps some will see this as a selfish act or as an act to escape. Al I can say is that I never see this coming and I'm very sorry for not being strong enough to follow everyone and disappointing everyone.

That is all I can say

yeay!

i thought this background will show the treble cleffs and the bass cleffs!! that is what the blog website showed!!! that's the main purpose why I decided to pick this template..rasa tertipu..huhuhu...(kecewa)

but still..i kinda like it..hehe...at least there's some of the music notes there at the right side of the blog..haha..and it's not too much or too little...just nice for an ordinary owner like me..haha!

i am...

Currently...I'm feeling lazy. Very lazy to start reading the notes that have been gathered. Perhaps this is because it is the last paper, and I am thinking of nothing else but to go home and watch movie and hang out with my pals... Haha...

But besides the laziness, I am currently feeling happy too. Happy not to myself but to the people around me that have found their happiness. Two of my friends are currently blissful in their newly found relationship. I am so happy! Finally! These two friends of mine have one thing in common: Both have big fans and they are very particular about choosing their life partner. The first friend finally found one without having to work on it too much but the other friend...well...she has been through a lot. And quite a suffering one actually. And ironically, it is the boy from her past that brings joy to her. So far, they are living in cloud nine...and I hope that stays forever. All in all, I am so happy for you both. xoxo

It's funny when we see how life knows how to make a twist of its own. Life is indeed unpredictable. We can never expect anything that is coming. But if we can, that is one bonus point and all that is left to us is to choose whether to value it or to ignore it.

exam review plus lesson

for starters...do take note that the exam is not completely finished. Still have another paper to go...hehe..

the main issue here is on the exams done that has caused me brain to lose most of its screws and wires and also caused my heart to cry...(metaphorically..hee). On top of that, it caused me hours and hours of sleep, food eating disorder, and some delusions that made me as though like an insomnia person that cannot sleep at night although the body badly wants to.

The cause: Having 4 law papers consecutively! That to me, is MADNESS!!! I pay salute to those who managed to stabilize the pressure and not feeling anything but carefree all the time. As carefree and as cheerful as I am, this is one thing that really placed the utmost pressure on me. Seriously, even during Mooting competition, it wasn't as horrible as this. I was so dissatisfied with the way our exam schedules were made. Dear responsible authority who made the schedule...please ensure that you have taken at least one law paper before you decide to make all 4 exams in all 4 days straight...one thing for sure..u aint gonna like it...

All in all...I have to say that it was only on a satisfactory level. I know I could've done better...but its is useless using the 'if' word..coz it already happened. And pray as hard as you like, u aint gonna get the time back to improve your performance..hell no!

The point that have to be taken...(this is one really good lesson to be remembered)...always..and I mean, ALWAYS be prepared for the unexpected. We aint no nostradamus that people say can see the future. We aint have no freakin time machine like the young michael j.fox movie that we can travel back in time. We are humans, prone to mistakes, full with shortcomings that can destroy ourselves if we are paying too much attention to the two. Humans also have extraordinarily strong spirit, strength and specialty that can definitely help us if we know how to use it and most of all to appreciate it. Yeah...we may be have studied like a month earlier...but who knows what's gonna happen? We control our study planning, but we don't control the schedule. And suddenly BOOM! 4 days papers staright..and some worse..5 days straight! When that happens, even if we studied a year early, if we are not ready to accept any unexpected events, we are gonna face problems. Not by anybody else...but yourself.

This semester's exam has taught me that we cannot always be sure and assume that we are livng in comfort and in a safe zone. The world and fate, especially, knows when to make surprises. And when they do...thair surprise really works..and only those who can handle it wisely will not completely fall into the surprise trap. And that requires a strong heart, emotion and most of all, Faith. And do not take time for granted. We always treat time ignorantly when it approcahes..thinking that we are not in need for time at the moment. But when we are in dyer need for it, it is the time's turn to be ignorant to us and laughed their way upon realizing our sorry faces for not appreciating their presence earlier..

ESS

whats dat? my very own syndrome i'm currently having...it causes me to have delusions and hallucianations and things that i shouldn't think about at this very moment. ESS=Exam Stress Syndrome..haha! (poyo jer). well...u would be if u have four law papers straight! that's a killer to the brains if not the body...mata pun boleh jd juling asyk dok baca kes berjela n notes yg noktahnya ntah di mana...huhu

anyways...no point blaming the schdule...blame the person who made it..hehe! most of all...blameyours truly...for not studying earlier and still despite there's only 3 days left, can still have the time to write a post in this blog!