Money or Impression?

I went out to survey for bridal shop today. No, not for my wedding purposes. Haha!! It’s for my family law assignment. We are given the task to make a portfolio of a wedding, and it is to be divided according to religion. So, since my class has many Muslim groups, we decided to focus on the customary or the ‘adat’ of the wedding according to the states of the so called married couple. And of course, we chose the one that is not so common in class. The bridegroom is based on Kedah adat (well, we have no choice since he is the only guy in our group) and the bride is from the state of Sabah! Once they wanted me to be the bride since I’m from Sarawak, but it got rejected in the end in order to keep peace and harmony of the group and to prevent any catfights that can cause major problem to the group. Hahahah

Ok, since I’m running too much away from the topic, lets go back to what I’m really trying to say here. So, we went to this particular bridal store, since we had the card and based on what they told during their promotion, it seems to us that their price is reasonable. We told them that we decided to have a photo shoot at the studio itself, and all we want from them is some wedding props and the ‘pelamin’. And we told them that we are using our own camera to capture the ‘moment’. Haha! So, we waited for the manlady doing the calculation of the price and he said slowly and steadily “RM650”. I was like wha??? Then my friend asked what about if we just use the pelamin and not their wedding gowns, how much will it cost? Again, slowly and steadily “RM2++” and again I was like WHA??? So, we said in a civil way ‘ok, kitorg discuss dulu, nanti kitorg call balik untuk confirm’, but actually deep down inside we were like lets get out of here now!!! When we went out of the shop, everyone said one same thing; “MAHALNYAAAA!!!!!!!” hahahahahaha….Looks like I’m not the only one who thinks like that. Then, we went to other stores. The second bridal shop is being a dawdler. They cannot give the final decision right there and then because the boss was not there. Hello, have you ever heard of a phone call? Is it so hard to dial the number and ask the boss? At least you can give the answer yes or no. Again, the second store is rejected. Then we went to the third and final shop. It’s the only one left here considering that we are in a small, ex-cowboy town. So, we went up, explained to them everything, and we asked for the price. And this time he said ‘RM50”. When we heard that we were sooooooo relieved! At least it’s not as costly as the first one and they can give the final say right there and then, unlike the second one, which if must know also gave a costly price. We were relieved and confirmed with the guys there that we will be there tomorrow to take the picture.

It got me thinking. The first store have really beautiful and elegant wedding gowns, so does the second one. Compared to the third one, those two are really eye catching. The third one is beautiful too, but most of the designs are similar and common. But in the end, it all turned to the third store. Why? Because it’s not really because of the designs that we matter, it’s the price. I was wondering on the two earlier shops, they are too concerned about the price that they left an important thing that should be considered first. We are students! And we are doing it in THEIR own studio! What is there to calculate about? It really gives me an impression. They should be aware that students have this financial problems and duh! of course we cannot afford to pay until 650! Which is most important to them? The money or the impression they’re going to give us? Compared to the third one, the price is reasonable and that too creates an impression that this shop is considerate to people like us students. They don’t really take profit into account, although that is an important matter too. In the end, it is the consideration and the kindness of the person that we will remember. I will remember that store, because they are helpful to us for our assignment. And of course we will help them too by promoting their shop in our presentation and portfolio. It’s a win-win situation for all of us. It leaves a good impression to us. The other studios do leave an impression too, but the impression of being less considerate and greed.

The double FF

It’s easier to forgive than to forget. Forgive and Forget.I’m sure there are people out there who have heard of this phrase before. It’s kind of like a popular phrase to be inserted in a drama or movie dialogue. I know, coz I watch tv a lot!! Haha!

well, what can you say when you hear or read this phrase? To me, I agree wholeheartedly. One thing I have to admit, I’m a softy. It’s very hard for me to decline when people ask for help and it’s very easy for me to forgive after they have offended me. But one thing for sure, I don’t forget as easy as I forgive. I will remember what they did. But not all things of course. If it’s just a minimal thing or just a joke, I’ll get over it without feeling any vengeance towards that person. It’s the really big serious offence that I’m talking about. I daresay I will remember it as long as memory lasts.

Call me cruel, call me bad, call me cold-hearted. Nothing can change that particular side of me. Because I think of course, everyone can apologise. Everyone can say I’m sorry. Everyone can write down saying their sorry and their regrets. Some even have the ‘gift’ to shed tears when apologizing to one person. But I always think this: What is the value of the person apologizing? Do they really mean it? Or are they just doing it because they want to get rid of their guilt and saying sorry is a way to escape from problems. And I wondered; am I the only person who thinks this complicated?

There’s no point saying sorry and still acts the same. Confused? I give you one situation. 2 people had a serious fight. The reason? God knows what. Then the one party apologized to the other party. So the other party thought; Hey, this fella’s apologized to me. Maybe we can be friends again. Maybe we can mend back the broken friendship that we ruined for no reason. But when the person tried to be friendly, tried to strike a conversation, the apologizing party treated it just like the way before the person apologized. And when I say like before the person apologized, I meant like a total stranger. Like they never knew each other before. So I thought. What’s the point apologizing when you are still behaving as cold as you were before? If saying sorry is just so that to make yourself feel guilt-free, it’s best not to apologize at all. My friend say that I’m over sensitive and being emotional. Ok fine, maybe I am. And that is what I am. When people apologized, I really appreciate it. It’s like they really have a good thinking about it and they regret the action and they want to mend what’s broken. That is why I find myself to be difficult to say sorry. Because I know if I nonchalantly apologize, and I did that mistake again, I’ll be hurting the person more. It’s as if we are taking them for granted. Sometimes I think am I the stupid one who accepts apology from everyone but in the end they still did the same damn thing? In the end I’m the only one who feel sad inside and think myself as a big fool and a moron for believing that they really regret their mistakes.

That is why I think its’ a good thing for me not to e forgetting easily a person’s deed. Sure, I might be acting like there’s nothing wrong ever happened, but who knows what I was thinking inside? And one more thing, when I made that one impression on a particular person, it’s extremely difficult for me to change that impression. Regardless of whether the person has changed into a better person, to me you’re still that very same person. And yes, I’m cruel for thinking like that. heh heh…

BOO!

haha...first and foremost..i know its been ages since i write in this blog. I just don't have any idea what to write...not to mention having my hands tied with really busy schedule. Damn! This semester is hectic. And what makes it more hectic is when we are 'blessed' with this REALLY ''COOL'' lecturer who does practically nothing. Supposedly it should be fun, but no way...this lecturer is tough! I really have to always remind myself that this lecturer will be the one who will mark my exam paper. Better keep a low profile and don't ever press the button or you'll be sorry.hahah!

But actually, this semester is really happening. Many things have started to pop out and we know more people and their character as we continue on. I started violin lessons along with my 4 friends, but they took piano classes..huhu... And I became a fasilitator for the first time! Yay! I always think that being a facilitator is a hard thing to do. Well, it does! But the weird thing is, it comes with an enjoying package where we will never regret volunteering to be one. Haha! Not to mention seeing our pals falling into crushes and admirers and most probably the l.o.v.e word. It's kinda scary for me coz I have really bad experience in it, but I just love to see the happiness in my friends when they like a person. I felt that before and I know how blissful it feels. Good luck to all you lovebirds!

This semester too we face health problems. Particularly the infamous swine flu. I try not to say flu babi coz it sounds really rude. But who cares actually right? Haha! It doesn't really give anyone any benefits, except of course the one week sudden holidays due to the kuarantine the university had to do. I see many of my friends having fever and coughs and flu. And I have to say they really make us all worry. Because it will be difficult to catch up with lectures when they are unable to attend them, especially when the lecturers refuse to provide us with notes. That's the challenge being a senior student. The lecturers will expect us to find our own notes based on the course outline they've given. I just have one thing to say to them. Get well soon!!!!

All in all, I have to say this semester is the most challenging so far. Not only I struggle with keeping my studies on track, but also I am struggling for mental and emotional stability. I can be pretty sensitive all of a sudden and become cold and moody few seconds after that. This is not a character most of my friends are aware of. And since I'm more of a emotion rather than a thinker person, the most crucial and important part of all is to keep my emotion stable and not to be easily distracted with anything unnecessary. I must always remind myself to stay focus at one point at the moment, and that is none other than studies, studies, studies and some enjoyments along the way. Any personal feelings are not allowed to enter the zone! haha!