=p

Unemployment is not fun.

=)

I think I should start writing again. I write quite a lot back in schooldays, but after entering the university, the idea seems to disappear all of a sudden.

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I'm thinking of making my blog private.

Should I?

another chapter

I've graduated.

I'm officially a law graduate.

All those four years, filled with laughter, tears, stress, fights and quarrels, valuable experiences, endless non-stop learning process have finally paid off.

Now that I'm not a student anymore, I have to go through the working world, which of course will be harder than learning. (must be strong must be strong must be strong must be strong must be strong must be strong must be strong).

But that does not mean that I'm going to stop learning. It's one of the process and experience in life that I enjoyed, regardless of the stress and financial troubles. And I want to go as far as possible.

Masters in Law, I hope to see you soon! Insya Allah!

bad

I lost the interest to read.

This is a bad sign

-_-

currently hate my life

ish ish ish

Jumaat lepas, saya tersilap naik komuter.

Semalam, yakni hari Isnin, kunci mangga yang berat tu jatuh 'landing' sedappp je kat kaki aku.

Hari ni, tertinggal handphone kat rumah. Pergi balik kerja naik komuter (the right one this time, luckily), so kenalah guna telefon office and public phone. Nasib baik tau lagi pakai public phone...hahahaha!

Series of unfortunate events? not really. More like series of careless events.

Esok apa pulak? Pakai kasut lain-lain? =p

the train back home.

Last Friday was a long day. And tiring as well.

At 6.00 p.m., I was feeling really happy. Finally, workdays are over and I was looking forward to the weekend. Normally, I go back home with my aunt. But since she was on leave at that time, I had to take the komuter train. Taking the komuter after office hour is not a nice, comfortable journey. I've taken the komuter many times and is familiar enough on which train to take to go to Kajang.

Unfortunately, that Friday, was not a normal journey. I think I was too excited to get back home that I didn't bother to check whether I hop on the right train. I got in safely, stood at the very end to avoid from falling and so that at least I can lean if not sitting. It was not until 3 stops that I realised that I was in the wrong train!! 3 stops!! sumpah blur giler!! The train was so packed like sardines, I was at the end, and I need to get out at the next stop. I started to think how am I going to get out? At that time I guess I have to be extra agressive. So, when the announcement said the train's stopping at Pantai Dalam station, I started walking towards the exit door, but it was so packed I was stuck halfway. T___T. Then when the door opened, dengan confidentnya, "TOLONG BAGI LALUAN SIKIT BOLEH? SAYA NAK KELUAR. TOLONG BAGI LALUAN. THANK YOU!"

Hahahahhaa....I can't believe I had to raise my voice in public so I can get out from there. I had to say that few times, because there were some passengers who refused to let us go out first. Talking about impatience. So, at Pantai Dalam, I had to wait for another komuter train to stop at KL Central, before I safely took the right train and reached Kajang. It was almost 9.00 p.m. and I was so exhausted. But at the same time, it was quite laughable. hahahaha! how could I be so careless?

Well, at least this is one of the many experience I will never forget. More to put inside my memory box! =D

Monday Blues

Monday is here again.

Back to work again.

I am feeling so lazy, I feel like sleeping half the day and watch movie marathons. Harry Potter, Pirates of the Carribean, Star Wars, Indiana Jones, Lord of The Rings. Wouldn't that be awesome?

Okay, cut it out faridza. This is no longer student life or 'penganggur' life. Haha. You're working, you're becoming a member of working class Malaysian. Deal with it. And yes, no matter how much you want to be like Peter Pan, where you don't want to grow up, this is not Neverland.

Dear Spongebob, do you have any tips on how to get all psyched and excited to come to work? I find it hard to put a smile on my face and shout 'I'M READY!' before I going off to work.

Sabar farid. Think about the money. The moolah. And how many BOOKS and CLOTHES you can buy. haha. (secretly, more excited about the books than the clothes..=p)

Book Reading

I was on the way going back home in Ipoh when I received a text message from a friend of mine. She invited me to a Book Reading session tomorrow at Garden Villa. I was so excited because I hardly have the chance to attend a Book Reading and of course I RSVP 'yes' to her invitation!

Going back home...the journey was not fun. The bus was delayed for an hour and a half, and by the time I reached home it was already 1 a.m.! Didn't really get a good night sleep. Well, nevermind, seeing my parents and my brother is one great feeling. My brother just had his 'bersunat' or circumcision, and he can't really move around. haha! poor boy.

So at 11 a.m. I was on the way there. Here's the poster of the event
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Was feeling excited!! and the place is really beautiful. Garden Villa 5, it has a nostalgic feel of it.

the info of it can be found here

It started quite late, but I enjoyed every moment of it. I even bought two novels; Teohlogy by the very own Patrick Teoh and Mea Culpa by Amirul Fakir, a collection of his essays. I love reading malay literature novels, rather than their normal love novels. No offence to the novel lovers. 

Poet laureate Haji Muhammad Salleh started first, reading his poems. For those who still remember the selected poems and short stories back in school; Si Tanggang's Homecoming, he's the writer. My favourite poem would be Surat Kepada Raja Siam tentang Durian. It was funny, classic and original. He read his poems both in Malay and English. Next, Patrick Teoh, reading his articles from his Teohlogy book. I think his session is the funniest, most lively and where I laughed the most. His articles are mostly true, mostly on what's happening in the country right now. He even wore  a T-shirt with the word 'I Love My Country but I Fear The Government'. I want that T-shirt!!! =D. After 10 minutes of refreshment break, we listened to Graham McEune, who lived in Ipoh before but currently residing in Singapore. He read some of his short stories compilation. It was wonderful to hear him read, especially with that pure British accent! He read 3 short stories, and my favourite would be the story where he went to the doctor because was worried of the smell of his urine was different and unusual. It turned out that it was due to the Petai that he ate when he was in Cameron Highland!!! lol! The final reader was Bernice Chauly, and she too read three of her short stories. 

It was fun to see how culture and everyday life can give a person inspirations and change their perspective in certain issues. I enjoyed every minute of it, every word, every gesture of the reader. We even took pictures with the reader and I had Patrick Teoh's autograph!!! Looking forward for any future book reading! but now  I'm looking and waiting for some book promotions! there are some novels that I want!! =D

p/s: there are some other pictures too! but will upload it later. Camera has no battery! >.<

Happy Birthday

To my dearest Daddy!!! =D

Happy Birthday to you! I love you to bits! And I thank you so much for all the teachings, love, patience, perseverance and care that you gave me and my siblings. You're the best in the world!! And I apologise for being a pain in the ass and for causing troubles and burden to you. Trust me, I will pay all that sacrifice you've done, and I pray that it will be real soon.

Love you so much dearest father.

How I Survived the First Day

Tajuk sangat over. Macam tajuk survivor tsunami or gempa bumi. Padahal nak tulis pasal entry first day kerja. Ceh! Tak apa la, sekali sekala nak jugak pakai hiperbola, dah lama tak pakai term sastera ni. hehe

Anyways, today was the first day of attachment. I prefer the term 'chambering' to 'attachment' but since my exam results are not out yet, like it or not, it's an attachment. T____T. Working hours from 8.45 to 6.00 p.m, and of course being a newbie, I reached there early. Then I was taken into the office where I was inroduced to the staffs there. I seriously didn't expect that there will be so many staffs, and I'm certain that I won't be able to remember all their names on the same day. I'm assigned to the litigation section, and is given my own cubicle! haha! Then came the awkward moment. I was surrounded by people working and typing and photocopying, and I sat there doing nothing. I asked the girl next to me if I can help her in anything, but they didn't have anything to give me and they didn't dare to give me because they didn't receive any instruction from the lawyer. So, I sat there, surfing the net, chat a bit with the girl next to me and another chambering student. At that time, I started to feel that it was not a good first day.

It wasn't until after lunch that I received some tasks. I was relieved, and nervous at the same time. Afraid that I might mess up and get scolded or shouted at, which is definitely not something that I want on my first day. Fortunately, the staff are willing to teach and it wasn't so complicated. Of course la bagi yang senang dulu kan..dah nama pun budak baru. hehe

All in all, the first day ended well. I still feel awkward, and I still have not made that many friends and acquaintances, but at least I managed to make myself comfortable enough not to hate the place. I just hope that throughout the whole 9 months pupillage period, I make a good performance and do more right things than the wrong.

Wish me luck!!

more than just butterflies in my stomach

will start work tomorrow.

can't stop thinking about it, I even dreamt about it. And the dream wasn't a nice one.

not prepared mentally and emotionally. I find it too fast to start. Didn't even stayed a week at home. Plans to make cookies and cupcakes with my brother...gone!

a reunion coming! hope I am able to attend it.

Don't know what to do now. Don't know what to prepare. I just hope that tomorrow will not end up to be my worst day ever.

should I?

Supposedly, there were four interviews to attend. I've packed my bags with all the formal clothes, tried to remember some basics on contract law, islamic banking, admiralty law as much as possible and wish that I can remember during the interview. I planned if possible, I'd like to do my chambering in a firm which has anything to do with shipping law or international trade, because that's what I planned to further my studies into.

Alas! I only went to the first interview and missed the rest. I am not sure whether I should call it a good interview or otherwise. I reached there early, waited in the lobby for about 10 minutes. Got called and was asked to fill in the application form, which I did it in a few minutes. Then came the boring part; waiting. Yeah, they made me wait for 30 minutes. And the staffs can see what I was doing (practically nothing!) as they pass by. Then the partner came, asked me a few questions like which do you prefer; conveyancing or litigation, and when can you start, and what if there were other firms that offered you a position, in which I asked those question honestly. I think. Haha.

The firm is different than what I want. They only do banking. 95% banking. At first, I thought maybe this is not the suitable firm for me, because I'm not interested in banking in the first place. So, I thought why get involved in something that you don't like? And they want me to start on 1st June! I was thinking of starting later. I need a break, plus, there's a reunion coming!! I don't want to miss it!! >.< Their pay is good though, in line with the lifestyle in KL. And the place is strategic, in the heart of KL, near to my aunt's workplace, so there's no need for me to bring my car, yet.

Then after the interview, I went to Sogo, while waiting for my aunt to finish her work. It ended at 3.30, so I have to wait like an hour and a half. And imagine wearing heels, carrying your file and coat, it was kind of exhausting. I've circled the place two or three times, before I went out to go to Mukmin bookstore, bought two novels and two magazines, went to Secret Recipe for some refreshments, before walking back to BNM.

Oh, I forgot to tell you. They called back. And I got the position. Which brings me to this dilemma of whether I should accept it or not? Parents gave the expected answer; take it. Some friends also suggested the same. I'm still uncertain. Should I? Because I'm not sure if this can take me to where I want to go. All this while people say to get the job you love. Now that it's the opposite, I'm not sure whether I can love the job that I get.

Journey

 And this journey that we're on,

how far we've come, and I celebrate every moment.

Yes. Every journey will finally come to an end. As for me, it will be the four years journey as a law student in a university located far up north of the country. Every journey has its story and tales. Mine is probably not the most exciting one, but I've learnt many things. Experiences taught me how to act wiser and smarter, how to cope with problems no matter how minimal it is, and how to survive when I feel that everyone else is going against me. I come to realise that not everyone is who they really said they are. People wear masks, and some of them wore theirs perfectly that you are unable to see the real person until they reveal themselves. I deal matters involving people; friendship especially, more than I deal with matters involving my studies, which is supposed to be my priority. I guess He wants me to deal with both. I had this thought that people will be kind to you if you're being likewise to them. Well, some of them don't and I had to learn it the hard way. First hand experience. And it was a good thing. Experience is really the best teacher, managed to wake me up and realize about the ugly truth before it's too late.    

But not all are pebbles in the shoe. Of course, there are also wonderful, lovely people I met that taught me that it is alright to go against the crowd. Just be true to yourself, and you'll do fine anyways. Different people have their path differently made. There was a time where I prefer to be in a comfort zone, but now I think, being too comfortable doesn't really take you anywhere. Still trying to cope with this, I just hope I have enough determination and strength. These friends, these darlings cheers my gray and lonely days, helped me in times of need, and lend their ears when I need someone to talk to. And together we create our own circle and memories.  

This journey will end in a few days. On the last day, tears will fall, there'll be endless hugs and kisses and taking pictures to capture and preserve the moment. Of course, it will be a sad day. But that is life. Life gives you precious memorable times you wish will never end, but only give you shorter moments for you to say goodbye. Or maybe it's just in my own experience. Sure, you will miss the times and how you wish you'd appreciate those moments more, but that feeling too, will come to an end. Because another journey awaits, and you cannot greet it unless you are ready to let go. Let go of the emotion of wanting to go back to the past. Take back the heart and emotion to the present day, and keep those cherished memories safely in a box, and store it in your memory and at the bottom of your heart. But don't lose it, because it will come in handy in times of need.  

Today in History

SINTOK- This just in. Apparently, a class of final year student who were taking their criminal procedure exam today had their exam to be 'postponed' for a few hours. This is due to the fact that the staff and the lecturer failed to provide them with Criminal Procedure Code (CPC), an essential reference for their exam. It was reported before that the lecturer, who do not wished to have his name published, have agreed and told his beloved final year students that they will be provided with Criminal Procedure Code for their exams. The Code will be provided by the faculty.

Nevertheless, the students were shocked when they found out that there was no CPC provided. Despite attempts made by several students to request to the staffs for the CPC to be photocopied as soon as possible, their request were not well entertained as the staff said they need to get permission by the lecturer himself. The lecturer was in Penang, activity unknown, perhaps handling a case or in his office or having a rest at home.

Due to the miscommunication between both the lecturer and the staff, students were made to wait without any definite answer of when the exam will actually starts. The paper that should have started as early as 9.00 a.m. was delayed for 3 hours, causing not only dissatisfaction, but also anger and tired of waiting.

This is perhaps one of the rarest occasion to occur in this place who take pride on having somewhat a good and efficient management skills. So far, there are no other places reported to this reporter about a delayed exam for 3 hours. Well, I guess this really is a one of a kind uni.

p/s: sila baca cara orang baca berita TV3 or BBC. lol!

this

dear God, ,make me a bird, so I can fly far, far, far away from here.

what I'm feeling right now. That sentence pretty much explains it.

what do you think?

I found this in makan-dalam.blogspot. What do you guys think? How far is this true?

http://makan-dalam.blogspot.com/2011/05/animasi-mengenai-islam-rugi-kalau-tak.html

time machine

Boy, time sure does fly fast! I just got back and is still having the post picnic mood, when I realized there's only 5 days left for the remaining 2 papers! so now you're panicking?

Procrastinator. A big one.

roadtrip + picnic

Able to sigh for relieve...at least for this one week. Last Wednesday was the second paper, Jurisprudence 2. And while I really like learning about Jurisprudence; honestly, I just like reading and knowing about different philosophies and how these jurists think about changing the society and the law and how much they defend their theory and critic others. Nerd much? Maybe. Haha! Unfortunately, I kinda botched the paper. Failed to remember that well what those jurists said and argued. Furthermore, I was feeling sleepy due to lack of sleep and had infections at my right eye (it turned red and itchy), VERY disturbing!! Frustrated. I knew I could do better, because it's one of my favourite subject! damn!

Too late to mend things now. What's done is done. So, after the exam, we have 10 days gap before the remaining 2 papers; criminal procedure and evidence. And as usual, I'm not the type of person who go preparing notes straight away. Normally I'll be doing it 4 or 5 days before the exams. Ha! And you wondered why I couldn't answer properly...faridz, faridz....haih....

Anyways, my friends and I decided to release the tension and treat ourselves to enjoy the end of a stressful week. So on Friday, we packed our bags and drove to Sg.Sedim!!!! Yay!!! a perfect getaway! the place is just beautiful!(it's so pretty I'm gonna die!! XD) I love being surrounded by nature, and this place is a must go! It's quiet, the air is fresh, greenery everywhere, and the waterfall is just awesome!! love the cool clear water!! At first I didn't plan to join my friends for a dip, because my monthly friend came at the wrong time! >.< Nevertheless, the water is just soooooooo tempting, I decided to jump into the water anyway! Hahaha! we had an amazing time, splashing at each other and floating in the water. The current is really strong, and unless you really know how to swim, it's best to be cautious. We brought along food, and we had a small picnic. Not the yummiest food we've ever prepared, but what the hell, eh? we had a really good time and it is definitely one memorable time! I really love the time, being around friends and nature, all the stress, and the tension...gone.

Here are some pictures I took from facebook. Didn't manage to upload those from my camera. =p